ParkerJunior ♥

2010-03-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

Whats life if your not even enjoying it its just another day another time you must pass by whats the use of living if your just doing it,
friends they come and go i know how hurt and sucky feeling that is but what can i do people are born like that and god creates this attitude to make a balance in the world

but from what i see its not balancing anymore things are leaning more on the left instead of the right.

we can be real we can be here but what we are just faking ourselves for the end of the world is near.

repent forgive and look towards into a brighter side

2010-03-08T23:01:00.002+08:00

I miss you grandma, i wish you are here sigh

you will always be in my heart

never forget how you thought me most useful stuff in life

you would know what to do now, im lost i cant see my path of life now

im falling apart grandma

.....

god keep her safe from all sins amin

2010-03-03T18:01:00.000+08:00

Dont do things that might lose the circle around you,

you may never know what you done until one part of your mind realise

so stop doing stuff you cant manage its ridiculous!

2010-02-25T15:18:00.003+08:00

I think its like about time ive done some updating over here

but theres nothing to be updated about me

life getting suckier

i lost someone i most adored and loved since child (R.I.P granny i miss you)

lovelife gone case no need to say anything about it because i know girls? haha

just need to stick something into their cunts

they have more ego nowadays more bitching more well you know MORE ?

whatever now over bored at home,

fucking thursday blues shagg no one to go out with

all i have is dota

so yeah im gonna be a gamefreak

a fat bastard always sitting at home facing his laptop with no life no girlfriends no nothing no worries

shaggy shagg yo

2009-12-24T11:23:00.002+08:00

<333333333333333
you made my day yeahh(;

2009-12-11T09:27:00.002+08:00

This is some people of my life now (:
let the pictures do the talking of what i have been doing this past weeks

<3

2009-12-05T00:28:00.002+08:00

Things are falling apart for me again
is it me, i was understanding right? i mean it must be me
gosh you said things was complex before your now deprived im understanding your situation it sucky and hard to manufactured
but dont take back what you said and ever regret
the day 'we' made that 'promise'
we promise to stay close no matter what, not the part that we will be together
i said we let fate and god decides

you said you like me and your happy when im in presence next to you, that felt good for the first time someone said to me sincerely.
this things are not in place right now
its not suppose to happen, i dont know whether to regret bumping into you or appreciate it
yes ive destroyed your life in a way but the thing is that your happy, i did made you happy right
i miss those lullabies talks at night
where i put you to sleep and laugh in the middle of the night where i have to turn on the tv so loud so my parents wont think im nuts.
i ever thought of marrying you after 7 years from now,
you change my perception of girls, but now its coming back to me and making me think no girls can ever make me happy, im just a stone a rock a passerby who makes people happy
i should start paying people to do that,
what makes me happy more than ever is you talking to me
theres no need for you to go MIA from me, that just pierce my heart through
im just laying in my house or zeeks place.
i should have let things stayed the way is, because i know this kind of thing would happen
its really harsh yes i know but you gotta be selfish sometimes to archeive what you want
and you my dear you are selfish sometimes, but in a good way
your honest but lie for a good reason,
i can know when you lie, i just kept quiet and let it be cause i know you did it with a good reason
what can i do now to convince you to stay and not being away from me.
being together doesnt mean your in love, love comes when you know your happy that is love
love is the world love is in every other people
everyone deserve to be happy and loved,
love yourself before loving others is not entirely bullshit
if you love yourself and yet still you cant be loved and share your love with someone
means your not in love with yourself enough?
and when you know and the person itself tells you that he/she likes you
gosh im so confused with life
i wanted to just go suicide mode and just get raped by satan, i know its not worth it
but you YOU are worth it, eventhough your a fuck up last time, good to know you change maybe that is what i like about you most its where you know when to change your life in instant,
gosh happy moments will last forever with gaps in between,

we can make it work if you want it to work,
being together is not the option for now but for you to stay beside me is the best option i could ever think of now,

and your little sis (m- - - ) im sorry to drag you in a way,
sorry if we cant meet, we were suppose to meet 11 december 2009 , but things are like this now i dont know whether its still on

P.S your just too scared about what people might think of you
fame isnt everything smallest things are

i love you and goodbye if your going away
many hugs and kisses for you <3

2009-11-23T10:51:00.005+08:00

Woooo im finallyyyyy 18 :DDDD
hahahha

Chalet aka House Party
was awesommeeeeeeee!!!!
Thanks to everyone who came!
and thanks to Rachael for taking the pics! (:
wont say much about it because to much to be told only people who attend knows how great it was ^^v

Now im going to Central just to go to 7eleven to buy a pack of cigarettes
hahah semangat ! XD
oh and 'you' came on friday by surprise (:
'you' is love
<3333333

2009-11-14T18:06:00.003+08:00

Heartache

i dont know whether its gonna be fate or just simple lies,
im gonna wait and hold onto it for a little longer
till my heart drains out then
i will finally give up and just rott my life away.

i miss you
i miss your hugs
i miss ruffling your hair
i miss that kiss i made on your forehead
you may say your a whore through my eyes your just as good as other bitches out there
'i need you because i love you'

i wont go down easily for you, something tells me your worth waiting for,
so yeahh no matter how fucked up it is ill be there for you
its going to be the 4th year(:
never regretted yeahh

7th December 1991

Thats you

2009-11-14T09:01:00.002+08:00

Friday of the 13th!
it wasnt such a bad day after all :D

first i was at school i was effing pissed sad and not in a very good mood, so yeah fuck care man
then i got an exciting message :D
then rushed home off to town
met up with alippo and went shopping !
hahaha
i tell you he gave the best gift that anyone could ever gift!
im sorry to those who might get offended lmao
but yeah he did totallyyyyyyyyyy
thanks so much bro, your the best i swear :D not in gay terms lol
met up with michelle
and her bf, amazingly i got along with him pretty well and this one girl name rizz or riss
well we watch the movie paranomal activity!
omg i thought it was scary but it wasnt worth watching but not in the theaters but online
the last part caught my attention abit, so im gonna watch it online again hahah
well went to fort canning did some stupid dares with sis (:
finally i spent time with her woo wooo hahah
talked chilled and next morning im home yeah yeah now im home haha

my party is like another few days cant wait :DDDDDDDDDD

^^v

2009-11-11T11:16:00.003+08:00

Heyyy partayyy people :D

ive been busy with my social life
cant blog much too much to tell too much to say too much to give too much to take :D
hahaha
im just gonna say zeek get well soon from your operation we'll ton again this friday yeah :D
my Chalet is coming up WOo cant wait :D

soon to be 18 and i would like to celebrate it with my close friends hanna zuzu aie shahfiq zeek alippo shab ik4 ryemie (:
they know me best, has been through thick and thin without them im nothing
and without them im not the person today
i will always be humble, sacarstic and the background joker who makes cat noises haha
that would be great! hahah party party party

i miss michelle ):
i miss salisha):
i miss hanna ):
i miss zuzu ):
i miss my NS brother alippo ):

meet up soon guys i wanna rape all of you :DDDD

2009-10-05T11:30:00.002+08:00

Been so long ive updated my blog, getting lazy everyday.
plus whats the point
so many shits happening, but i dont care now.

YOU rather choose that thing than our friendship.
it hurts me so much that ive cried just because of that. You say you dont live to hurt but your hurting people with your stupid choices.
i cant control your life true but what i can do is make you realise.
i gave you a choice to make the thing or me , it looks like you cant make any decision
because your bloody brain have accept drug that its nothing.
drug is a hateful thing for me

dont bring yourself lower than you are now,
you will end up like the rest which you have been criticizing
your such an idiot URGH!

much loves Parker/idris

2009-09-14T14:43:00.003+08:00

Ohhhh to all my muslim friends selamat hari raya, yang akan datang lagi sebebrape hari sahaja
i just put lagu lagu raya, to get the festive going early!
wooo its just the best time to bond with your loves ones ! am i right best (Y)

okay we have another few more days hang in there people!

hahahah enjoy my songs of raya in my blog muah muah!

2009-09-11T02:02:00.002+08:00

woohhhh i had a groovy day today
got my baju raya wee wee ahaha
white colour = sachok beb

hahahahahahah well whatever went shopping with mom and little bro, surprisingly it took like what 45 mins shopping and we got what we wanted how great was that.
haha no wasting time thats the the term of shopping.
buka kebab and 2 chicken, and air katira not that nice sia the drink cb fucking disgusting aha
well nvm,

after that got home text shab wanna meet so we met, bumped into nyemi was unexpected gile lol
well talk talk then bumped into darwis aisey mann this sat dorang buka luar with old classmates mesti fun so yeah is a must although its going to be kutuk sane sini
chilled smoke, and home played one game of dota.
then now blogggin kimak tkde life
k bye

2009-09-09T17:10:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Nur Sabiha! :D
Shaggy Shebby
Girl Masai
Girl Hebat
Astro Girl

Funny how it seems we've been through alot and hurt each other multiple times
but no matter what we are there for each other.
we once had something going on, but now its all good close friends is more important then just some mere fling.
nothing can come through our friendship not even a girl^^v
"teman tapi mesra"
now i know what you mean by that
dont misjudge by that sentence

We both head off to st james kinda sucks cause zeek alipo and cweka cant make it, but nvm everyone is busy at their own stuff.
whatever my classmates said about st james was true lol its epically awesome!
but never stand there too long or have like the same songs repeated it gets bored
its a thing we shouldnt always do. thats the fact accept it ! haha
well bumped into alot of my old old friends omfg i feel really great seeing them and recognizing me with my new hair seriously haha!,
well yeah thats my new hair do kinda sucks and unexpected that i cut it like that so yeah
most of all shab happy birthday la kan finally your 17 now you need to catch with me cause im turning 18 pretty soon so you have about like what 2 months to brag we are the same age :P

well we sahur at tanjong pagar "railway"
she was sleepy i was sleepy, wait for first train and head home
she ponteng her attachment yeah you go girl lol
dont be the dog but be the owner!
take control of your own life! never fear never fall LOL
i sound like some hxc fanatic
okay okay reach home straight to bed at 6 plus, woke up at 2.50 EXACT nicely done
now just chilling at home updating me blog helping granny out on cooking

thats about it! and ill like to go clubbing again, you can make instant friends there but what wonders us is for how long? hmmmmmmmmmm

once again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHAB!

2009-09-03T00:10:00.002+08:00

Been awhile ive updated, hmm
i dont see the point updating it anyways, ill just get pissed off and so annoyed by my own post.
i just told michelle i hate human nature, hah no idea why it sucks i guess cause nowadays hypocrites are increasing each time i bring in my circle of friendship bigger, It sucks period.
ive been spending time with zeek and shab and some certain people, gotten really close.
but still i dont know why i feel so lonely inside tortured torn and many negative feelings.
things are falling apart for me again, and this time i dont know if im strong enough to face them in reality. it looks like fantasy but it is happening, neverless im gonna do something about it.

im a guy not a girl, people might think its like a bitchy act of posting this kind of thinking but its my blog, criticise if you want, your words wont kill me. but something else can you just dont know it yet.

i told you i wont want to fall for you, but i cant help it i need to stay a distance from you for i will never ever fall for you. You and I cherish the same thing which is friendship. in order to do that i must stop shagging this feeling

peace love freedom mates

2009-08-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

Impianku - Rocket Friday

Cinta Tanda Tanya - Rocket Friday

OUR NEW SONG!!! :DDDDDDD
Rocket Friday your one and only!
Its a malay rock song so enjoy guys!
credits to shebby shabby(:
she wrote the lyrics so give her a clap!

2009-08-16T22:18:00.000+08:00

woahhh tonning with zeek and shab
gerekks haha at bukit timah but before that went to Vivo got asian beats bla bla
then bored thought of catching a movie but nahhh
went off to Bukit timah played pool lol fun gila
shab last time so slenger dont know how to play now so fucking pro already -.-
hahaha she surpass her master which is me :DD lol!

and they love Naughty G hehehhehehehehehehe
wanna get high and hyper
drink that you'll get your balls and boobs wet LOL
it was fun now at home tired and wanna sleep early i guess

as surprisingly hais things aint getting better at home hmmm
really sucks but what can i do
its all happening for a reason, there is something happening with my family i just cant dig out the truth
hmmmmm
time is consuming
but it will tell all

the thing is i dont have time .. arghh!

2009-08-13T11:58:00.002+08:00

been awhile ive updated my stupid blog
i guess its because lots are happening
hmmm, cant really tell but i feel like im not going anywhere in my life
its like a dead end now.
i need to find the right path
i know someday ill be working, ill be having kids
its just too fucked up right now to think about work and stuff....
but in the other hand i do want to get a job.
hmmm

so lost and confuse

2009-07-29T16:16:00.000+08:00

DDD: now im having diarrhea sucks big time after one another
last week high fever then flu then cough then sorethroat, now this shittting shotgun happening to me -___-
and i had a good/bad dream sigh, one good thing about it i got to see you in my dream
the bad thing is your angry at me for some reason, you roll your eyes at me .
woke up kinda pretty sad sigh.

i bailed school due to stomach ache, now at home just chilling and shitting every 15 mins
, there was a slight pause over here when i was typing i went to shit -___-
now i know how girls pee, fucking nice ah easier hahah!
imagine two holes popping out water at the same time, jeez im not shitting im pee-ing
hahahahha

well anyways im staying at home again shit my attendance so fucked up.
i really need to catch up with my work at school
if not i cant take my exams
we all dont want that huh ....

haha

2009-07-27T16:41:00.003+08:00

Wooo finally made a video of it
:D
haha i post it at Facebook already so yeahhs!
i feel like its the best song ive ever written, enjoy mates (:

you were there to keep me alive
i was the one who is in pain
nevermind about me
i can put a smiley face
you said that you care
but your gone within a second
a mixed up emotion feeling
oh my god it im over you

you'll never be alone
i will always be by your side
you'll never be alone
cause i wont go~~

i will cross the river
i build a bridge over there
you cross over and climbb that ladder
and reach to me

three days that im home
lying sick on my bed
putting me to sleep and never wake again
goodbye for now,
"please get away, i dont want to see your face again"
cause that's what you might be thinking
and you left me hanging for now

2009-07-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

Back From Ielah Chalet!!! hahaha wahh so much fun you betcha :D
shima's birthday too
so happy birthday to you two alright!
18 already all makcik makcik!! hahahahahahah

alot of things happen whoever came knew what happened
and the songs for YOUU people :D hahah
one person got one song tauu
honored sikit !

hahahahahahaha so yeahh chill milll but i was kinda moody at the 2nd night cause the place remind me so much of you :/ i guess instead of me being sad, i became pissed about it
but i need some music and some jokes than im alright and indeed i did :D haha
had a good sleep, shee fir and dont know who heard my snore they said its unique -.-
ahahaha its not unique cause im sick thats why hahah! mcm harimau kene main kan haha!

alright then ending it here no pictures yet so yeah

2009-07-22T17:45:00.003+08:00

Finally i updated my blog huh :D ahaha

anyways ive spend my time with them last friday,
really made me hyper and fooh really made me happy :D
and we all know what "rammy" did that day LMAO
thanks guys

like my new skin? i guess its nice to me, (:
i miss my besties!!
grrr, will meet you guys real soon next week :D shisha karoke kk ? haha

much loves
xoxo
ParkerPirate

2009-07-12T13:06:00.002+08:00

Saturday.....

woke up with a fucked up nightmare, i just cant belive that you said its over but i just want you back so badly, because it wasnt me i swear ): hais

i thought of finding you when im out, so met up with besties told them what happened and the real thing that your yet to know, for it was not me it was this particular person who spoilt it. My love for you is like real and not about giving an eye to that person for this person(you know who)

went out at 4, meeting mother at lot 1 because my stupid brother pissed me off by taking my clothes but guess what when i reach there mother was not there she said she was already otw home i was so fucking pissed off and i cant take it i almost cried its not because only that, it felt like my life is falling apart all over again.
i didnt wanna be late because hanna and zuzu was waiting, sigh with a big dissapointment in life i manage to have a smirk for them.

i told them im gonna search for you but i didnt had a phone, i said nvm singapore is still small i can find her, accomponied zuzu doing her project at SMU by taking some pictures,
rain started to fall from nowhere in my heart and mind is like rushing and telling me that how the fuck am i gonna find you, i was so pressurize by it i went to bugis to dhoby to smu again went to raffles almost went to every place that you could ever hangout, eventhough its raining i didnt care. After all that i just went to citylink, met up with shahfiq faris ginos, called zuzu and yeah bla bla with great dissapointment i didnt found her, saw alipo then we talked and stuff, i called you.....then after that txt you can we meet, you said cant meeting some other people sorry, i understand so it was quite important to me that i wanted to see you, but i dont know whether its important to you to even see my pathetic face . hais

i just like ran all over the place like a marathon, i just need to explain things to you. i cant bear to lose someone again:/

i dont want to let it go, for what EVERYONE HAS BEEN TELLING ME i hate that i HATE THAT, i can do something about it .

i still love you "JVW"

2009-07-05T15:26:00.002+08:00

Im not gonna elaborate my weekends as for its the most lovely weekend

you <3 me
579

lmao byeee

im sorry to you guys because i didnt went to gig!
im sorry M4R i didnt get the chance to catch you guys
and some other awesome bands!

gah haha

2009-07-02T17:26:00.002+08:00

Welll i just woke up ! hahah its like 5.28 pm
so whatever skate ton yesterday with shahfiq and faris
wasnt really skate ton more like a lepak kind of thing
played games wahh shiok sia UFC but i always kena own
but i own them by playing DBZ burstlimit lmao

buat malu je shahfiq kalah ngn aku 3 times in a row
hahaha
anyways skate-d at woodlands and YES FUCK YES AGAIN I GOT INJURED
my left arm got this stupid red patch arghhhhh fucking pissed lol
stupid deck the nose too soft so i wrong footing and fell on the road
or was it something else-.-

fucking cursed woodlands!
hahahahah assholess stupid spirits disturbing me XD

okay whatever human body are very delicate have really slow healing powers
im tired as hell, i wanna go back to sleep!
bye guys

i love you girl(:

2009-07-01T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ohhhh~~ what a dayy today, woke up at 11 plus due to mother,
so what nvm, played dota for the first round, NEVER BATH hahahahahahahahahah
then someone show up at my window i was like wtfh im so masai and someone came guess who
its shebby and lala -___________-
so yeah went out to smoke haha i guess its their first time seeing me masai gilerr haha
but wth who cares im a guy im suppose to look like a stud hahaha.

well after a short chit chat and smokes, they need to go off already so yeah
play dota until sian already.
so shahfiq asked me whether im skating or want to skate or not,
so i said yeahh whatever okay cool lets skate hahah
so took 963 about 745
then fuck the bus breakdown -.- in my mind
shahfiq confirm binget hahah!
bla bla bla
yeah then reach hardcourt the first thing i saw is shahfiq pointing his fucking middle finger at me
hahaha well it was expected but FUCK YOU
hahaha bus breakdown HAH

well im fucking lazy to elaborate im gonna go off to dota :D

haha byeeeeeeeeee

imissyou love(:

2009-06-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

booyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
thats NADZ! hahhaah remember her from secondary ? no because of her ridiculous braces? i guess so, i spend my saturday going to DGR
no need to know the full meaning.
hahah
whatever so yeahhh she came down to clementi with her boyfriend the pictures are all there
me old mates are there, so yeahh
was kinda boring at first not untill aiman bands played,
woah freaking nice la please hahha

after all that it was 8 pm
so yeah moved on to clark quay,
i met you, yess youu the one who wants me to blog right now this instant.
ahh i love being around you now eventhough you can be so rough to me, well it doesnt matter
well slacked there till 11? "you" went off to siglap with gfs, but i cant come for i was hungry pluus tired. im so sorry dear ):
you know i want to but yeahh, haha so she was like giving me this grumpy face which made me laugh and i dont know why but yeah.
saw iskandar my classmate! WAH haha irritating but funny nvm.
haha "you" went off kissed hugged

and offf i went home and today sunday i like fucking slackkkkkkkkkkkkk abis hahah
so yeahh sat on the chair played dota the whole day for i cant msg her or even talk to her in msn for she wasnt online,
but she is now and im gaming, what an asshole am i.
okay she's talking to me wont want to like make her pissed hahah
she's gonna read this but who cares :P

iloveyou<3

2009-06-26T13:10:00.002+08:00

This are some of the pictures from Life's A Beach! (:

2009-06-25T02:28:00.002+08:00

oh wellll
im updating now at 2.30 am in the dark moonlight morning
because juju wants me to, so yeah
heh juju

well the past few days i havent been online because been tonning
drinking, and so call party like fuck
hahahahahahahah from there i guess i found the right time to tell
only some people know so yeah screw you fockers wanna know :D
ask me if your interested ill have a half a mind to tell you

well fucking bored talking to juju and rym on msn
just go back from andy's place
haha alot of shit happen, funny stuff happen
especially The "Triangle"
i put a 'the' to make it sound epic! haha
welll me and aie tonned for 5 days and 5 night fucking lazy to elaborate on what we've done
but 2 words smoke drink
hahahaha
easiest
anyways me and aie have been like doing "straightedge" at bedok hahah fucking fun i swear to my ballssssssssss hahahhahaha stupid idiots serving for the goverment
such as dont even know how to count money
dont even know your own products are being stolen
and for fuck sake haha its freebies!
well hope you get the picture :D

im sleepy and i miss you but you dont how sad! haha
nvm you means <3
hopefully you have the same thing going on haha

(:

2009-06-15T14:20:00.002+08:00

Friday skate skate skate!!!
first time met azhar
kimaaakkkkkkkkk haha pro siolll 6 decks lepas -.-
yoshi flip, massiveee

took so long for me to update, i know . bumped into leena and belle berat at town
so yeah thats why got pictures XD
yeahhhhh

saturday rott till 7 , then went out to meet shabby zeek cweka
yeahhh, bumped into fahfa, Bro lu skrg power XDD haha you know i know HAHA
then slacked with them, met up with fiqqo aie and jason and kimie
loads more ahhh, was gerek no doubt

sundayy
i thought of skating sia, ccb -.- hahah kena paitao seems like i cant call faris on his phone the bloody singtel fuckers cant reach even zuzu -.-
then im like at marsling waiting like a dick trying calling them went to faris house
went to hardcourt esso
all dont have -_____-
thhen shabby say she slack at her place
so met up with her, hahah freaking funny dance video *winks* hahah!
then muse, rais and faiz came along haha so longgg tk nampak hahah
gerek ah beb nampak korang kecohhhhhh

alrighty now back to my no life moments,
everyday dota dota dota
hahah

i do still think about you, and moments that we shared
the pain is unbearable but i have to let it go

2009-06-11T10:53:00.001+08:00

..sigh

You said this could only get better.
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.
You said this would last forever,
But now I doubt if I was your only lover.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same.
'Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me.
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know.
'Cause girl your driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away.
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain!
So where's the fire?
You've begun the rain.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
'Cause I'm not over you!

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know,
('cause girl your driving me so crazy)

And if you don't want me then
I guess I'll hav'ta go!
Not loving you is harder then you know.

YEAH!

So I'll make the call,
And I'll leave you today
I'm gona miss you 'cause I love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call
I'm leaving today

Leaving always drives me crazy!
Leaving always drives me crazy!

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder
Then you know,

YEAH!

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go (I'm tring to let go)
Not loving you is harder
Then you know,
('cause girl your driving me so crazy)

And if you don't want me then
I guess I'll havt'a go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go)
Not loving you is harder then you know
(Girl your driving me so crazy)

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder, then you know,
Girl your driving me so crazy.

2009-06-08T20:41:00.002+08:00

-_- _|_

FUCK YOU !

im really feeling sucky, your talk is bullshit!
bitch bitch bitch!

this is a song that so relate to my feelings
its on my playlist
cant hear? here's the fucking lyrics

The first time we met, your face became etched in my mind.
You were the sun; I was the one who worshipped you.
My hands were your guns; your eyes were my muse.

And I knew you could never love me.
I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach.
But can I still keep a place in your heart?

You broke my heart. You promised me the moon and stars.
I fell for your dreams. I fell for your lies.
There was no other way, you know I tried.
And I knew you could never love me.
I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach.
But can I still keep a place in your heart?

There is something I want you to know.
I think you know exactly what it is.
I didn't want to save you. I didn't want to save you.
I set our house on fire to watch it burn.
But I couldn't just leave you there.

And I knew you could never love me.
I had so much sorrow inside you could never reach.
But I'll ask you this...
Will you still miss me? "Yes, I'll miss you."
Do you love me? "Yes, I love you."

Planes fill the sky; we'll both die tonight. We'll both die tonight.
Hands from the sky swat us away like flies, as we follow the light.

This union a battle fought and lost.
This union was not about the cause.
This union was never about love.

2009-06-05T23:23:00.003+08:00

hmm im feeling really REALLY REALLY! fucking pissed OFF!
sad
depress
alone
mentally mind fucked
deceived
betrayed
mixed up
fooled for
majorly jealous
envy
negativity
negative future thoughts
last of all really feel like dying,

i dont know if anyone cares or what sheesh, my life of 2009 ? sucks! big time!
everyday i feel like crying, well before you mofo's spamm my bloody tag board, im telling you guys can cry, dont tell me you dont cry
assholes -.-

i just dont feel like love exist already
people want LOOKS! NICE FIRM HOT PECS! BLOODY PERFECT FACE!
i dont get it
why love has perish from this bloody world -.-
all i see is, wrong guy + insecure girl = got fucked and laid bla bla
but has a guy who have a crush on her for a long time, he was happy before that because the girl was giving him HOPES! and HINTS! that she loves him

after that plus minus thing
HERE COMES THE BEST PART EVERRRRRRRRR
Girl: oh im sorry we were just meant to be friends, maybe in the future
Guy said yeah maybe in the future

A month later...

Guy: Gosh this girl has made him so happy (:
Girl 2:"dating": I had a superb time with you
Guy: oh i did too (:

1 month 2 weeks later

Guy: what if i say that i love you hmmm what would you say
Girl 2: hmmm what if i say no?
Guy: 'Gasping with negative thoughts'
Guy: errr then no ah
Girl 2: what if yes
Guy: 'confused' then yes ah
Guy said what would you say?
it was 2.30 am in the morning
(webcamming with big smile on each faces)
Girl 2: yeah i do too (:
in this guy thought he was like "OMFG no way did she just said yes?"

several months past after all they've been through together
cuddled in movie theatres which the guy never had the chance to do it with anyone. spend one night on the bed kissing through out the night
which the guy never had experience before either.
.....

......
.... things started to change,

Guy texting: heyy baby i hope you have a good day and goodluck on your presentation(:

Girl 2: ............*no reply*

before that happen she said she cant msged much so he left a message for her to show that the guy have some concearn for her.

Guy: heyy its been two days, you havent replied me, are you okay?
Girl 2: ........... *no reply*

the guy started to feel hurt that she cant even spare him one message
and day by day passed, he had this feeling that she had left him stranded on the far end of the road.

Guy texting: if you dont love or even like me anymore please have the guts to tell me, so i wont be hurt so much.........

Girl2: ............. *no reply*

Guy went to over a week of depression after finding out from one of his friend that she has left him without even telling,

Guy Friend: hey i just asked Girl 2 whether she is still contacting Guy,
Guy: what what what?

he was anxious to know very much,

Guy Friend: she said no, i told her that doing that its not healthy you know
Guy: ...... sigh nvm okay thanks so much

Guy just dropped, he just fell on the floor without even noticing
thinking how cruel a girl could be that mean,
he just went beserk, trying to act nothing so his friend wont know so much but when he himself needs comfort.

he just went flat on everything, EVERYTHING

Guy started to get back to the Girl before this after thinkin so much that maybe he regretted leaving that he ever loved for almost one year plus and known for 2 years.
he thought giving it another chance maybe she is just ready this time

but instead no,

5 months ago,

Guy : why cant we be together? what i dont have that you want?

Girl : its not that urghh hais
Guy: then what??
Girl: i just want to have fun being single again, after what happen to me and my ex
i might not be in a r/s for a year or two

Guy: *gasp* sigh i can wait for you, you know
Girl: why cant we be just friends?
Guy: but you confessed to me that you loved me?your the one who said it yourself i didnt forced

Girl: i love you as a friend

Guy: *burst into tears non stop* *pissed off* * thinkin that this is just no happening she cant love me just as a friend*

Guy : ....... arghhh whatever.

Girl: haiss

Well the rest i cant tell you, i feel like crying typing this story -.-
anyways
haha if you felt what i just typed please tag my board and tell me what does the guy deserve? or what does the girl deserve?
or even better, Who is at fault?

2009-06-04T12:12:00.000+08:00

I just feel so sucky nowadays, im happy but inside just truly sad.
no doubt bout that , smoking packs now instead of "roll your own tobacco"
the feeling of weed wannabe is gone haha,
i just feel like its because of YOU im feeling like this
never in my life ive come across a girl like you sheesh,
yeah i may be not good looking or whatsoever
haha but you said the L word, the only word that can hurt a million zillion people.
bloody pricks, what am i not enough?

(another thing is, i dont know why i can wait for you last year but somehow you could just like someone new when you know that i was there for you longer than him)

nevermind about my feelings not as if anyone cares haha,
well i wanna keep my hair long again :D
wee i wanna be called emo emo emo lol! so i can find fault hehe
best haha and mainly the hair, ive been on diet for two month and hell yeah my KG is dropping faster than ever! haha im gonna continue till the end of the year
and fyi i dont wanna make my body muscular, we'll see? haha i guess i will maybe i wont (:

chill out peace n love ^^

2009-06-03T23:27:00.003+08:00

Well well welll i got something to look forward now :D hahah
Hi mat kentals HAHA
supposedly kental abis,
bo lampah!
but whatever thats not what im gonna blog today hah fucking pathetic losers
if you cant win and your at fault dont make it like its my fault that me and you are over sheesh
haha,

Today i went to zeek house haha kening up up when i reach there man haha serious
ailenn i think thats how the name spelled haha
recorded a song was actually meant for "you" haha which i dont know who is that person? hmmm maybe i do,
well it will be uploaded in myspace in a moment :D

www.myspace.com/rocketfriday

Do check it out i guess it should be done already by now (:
cheers to all my friends that stays
i love you guys (:

and by the way! haha im not handsome IKNOW LMAO
i dont need some loser that is lower than me to tell me (:
you just made my day mofo!

2009-05-31T11:44:00.002+08:00

FUCK YOU BITCH! YOUR SUCH A WHORE!

YOU ONCE MADE ME HAPPY! BY DOING THINGS MOST GIRLS DONT DO!
YOU BITCH YOU FUCKING MALAY PRICK!
YOU DONT DESERVE MY HEART MY LOVE MY FUCKING CARE.
YOU NEVER GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME YOU JUST LEFT ME HANGING WITHOUT EVEN SAYING ANYTHING.
I SWEAR TO GOD IM GONNA CURSE YOUR FUCKING CUNT IS GONNA BE LOOSE TO THE NEXT GUY YOU GO OUT WITH!
NEVER!!! NEVER!!! SAY THINGS YOU DONT MEAN YOU FUCKING PRICK!
AND YOU KNOW WHAT I GAIN THE BENEFIT NOT YOU, AND HELL YEAH IM TELLING THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD! I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU CAUSE YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ME!

SO YOU AND YOUR SMELLY CUNT CAN GO TO HELL AND PERISH LIKE THE MOTHERFUCKING SATANS FUCKING YOUR BLOODY ASS. I HATE YOU I FUCKING HATE YOU, NEVER I'VE BEEN MEAN TO A GIRL BEFORE.

BUT FOR 4 FUCKING MONTHS YOU MADE ME LIKE A TOY. YOUR DEAD, YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IM CAPABLE OF YOU FUCKING MALAY/CHINESE PRICK!
BITCH WHORE SLUT FUCKING SHORT BITCH

THIS IS WHY BITCHES LIKE YOU MAKE GUYS LIKE ME SUFFER AND MORE DEPRESS,
THE WORST PART IS YOU KNEW ABOUT MY PAST AND YOU STILL DID IT. I SWEAR YOUR A HYPOCRITCALLY MENTALLY CHALLENGE BY YOUR OWN MIND. BY THE FACT THAT YOUR FUCKING PITYNESS REALLY WORK HUH. I HOPE YOU BECOME A FUCKING BEGGAR AND ASK FOR DICKS NOT CASH.
BYE AND FUCK YOU BITCH!

5 JUNE IS YOUR BIRTHDAY AND HELL YEAH IM KIND ENOUGH TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

I REALLY THOUGHT YOU WERE DIFFERENT. I GUESS I WAS WRONG, YOUR EVEN WORST THAN THE DIRT. I HOPE YOU JUST DIE ALRIGHT. YOU MADE MY LIFE EVEN BETTER NOW.

who here agree with me that she's a bitch.
do call that number give messages to that number and tag me.

96965232 <<< SPAM THIS BITCH IF YOU THINK WHAT IM SAYING IS TRUE

2009-05-31T01:30:00.002+08:00

They made my day (:
ive been sad for the whole week or more hmm, nothing in particular but yeah
im happy for now
glad to meet abang botak
"illusion" haha

2009-05-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY! IS NOT ! A SKATE ! DAY!!!!!!! -_____-

I hurt my right wrist by falling in a BIG drain fucking pissed and like in pain ah!
fucking blowjob, shahfiq saw me fall down all he even had a small chuckle, bastard haha
nvm i dont care my right leg injured dont know why, right wrist got one slit like emoshit
left tri cep whatever they call it got one big patch haha super sia,
but at least im getting better at skate :D

now just chilling resting away from skate for a few days then BOOM im back
im gonna own syafiq, the town skater dude sheesh-.-
haha whatever

me and faris were having GVR with Shahfiq and izrul ( Goofy Vs regular )
hahah 1st round Regulars totally owned goofy hah
the next round goofy took the place cause my hand was giving me problems, yeah
so in the end headed home early

now im currently waiting for dearly someone to text me which she is not which is making me sad pissed emotional and very very very very insecure! gah haha

well whatever

2009-05-15T00:12:00.002+08:00

yo yo yo

ive been skating alot cause since Wednesday and Thursday have no school :D due to Ishak peluh go on course padan muke pey boncet!, lmao
k so mean im sorry.

yeah skate skate skate with shahfiq and faris, im getting better i think or getting worst lmao!
hahah well nvm its just a past time lifestyle yeahh.
Thursday skate, and i fell down cause i felt something pulled my leg and i hurt my left arm damn sad la sheesh lucky never die hahaha, its around marsling someone trying to communicate me by making me fall like an idiot infront of faris and one dude LMAO hahah!
well whatever im not scared of 'you' but im not provoking 'you' (: haha

well im tired i wanna masturbate (: haha care to join!

2009-05-11T10:42:00.002+08:00

PIMP!

i spend my saturday with the girls, looks like i became a pimp and its all Juju's fault lmao
been awhile ive seen her, fitri and elly
good to see them again, so yeah hanna bestie and zuzu was there too (:.
we went to far east to eat at this place, dont know what is it called, eventually i didnt eat.
so sat down there doing nothing UNTIL! Juju and elly making this bimbotic jokes lmao
it was funny though i like the one where she said "chocolate cake"
such a dick lol.
yeahh

well im lazy to like post the whole story so ill just end it here

I miss you oh so much(:

2009-05-03T18:16:00.003+08:00

That's me! see the changes? Noob, ??? , Myself
its really ridiculous when someone say that they know themselves very well
as for me it took me more than 2 years to find my true self, i finally found myself and my ways and not like following on what people seek and expect from me.
After all the pain ive been through the things that i lost, it made me strong and have a straight thinking about my life.

Living life doesnt mean you need to do right thing, just the choices that you made
get the quote?

have a good day (:
Saturday: i spend my time with the Twins(:
short and simple

2009-04-27T23:29:00.002+08:00

TODAY!

well guess what i went to school and got fucked because my hair was long BAHAHAH teachers are blind nowadays they need a reality check that they are so so so outdated in a way.

i skipped the next class for what the hollywood no one is going to turning lesson im like arghh nvm i also cabot become like those satans haha

after that i went skate at queenstown skatepark
and WOAHH a well known Pro skater chilled with us and he thought us some tricks, and guess what im a vert and street skater now ! hAHA
its "Man Toyol"
he gave a few of his stickers, a malaysia company wanted to sponsor him but he turn down due to some reasons, i have the stickers called "nss" never heard before lol
but yeah it was a good day to skate today,
i landed a varialkickflip and fakie fs popshoveit!
yeap

good day mates!

2009-04-26T14:04:00.002+08:00

Ohhhhh goshh!!! haha
i miss her alott! hmm
we've been on the phone for a week new record for me lol
anyways its been different lately but i wont let this go i dont want it to go(:
hoho, what a amazing girl.
your what i want and what i need.

I Miss You(:

2009-04-26T00:03:00.002+08:00

Today!

Since today i cant see "baby", i went off to skate (:
i fell down on the way there, bloody hell i didnt see a deep hole and of my wheels went in i roll down hahah its funny if it werent me falling down hah, and a car just drove by infront of my face so yeahh quite close to my death but it missed hahah.

so skate skate skate till 8.40 chilled with adam and two of his friends he pro skater sia
haa i cant even land a indie grab on the banks ahahha sad much? lol
yeapp nevermind skate must try!!
i bought gundang garam singapore packet today and fuck how much i regret of buying that bloody pack i hate it hahahah seriously the ciggs makes you headache damn face lor hahaha irritating
well im tired wanna go on the phone with "baby" like after i bath or something

so peace out mates!

2009-04-25T10:40:00.002+08:00

Current two favorite videos haha
first video is SOLE element shoes production, in that video Mike V pull off a sick 360 flip.
second video is just spoke and mates called SMDB dancing off to milky way.

Enjoy!

now im just waiting for (: hoho

2009-04-20T00:39:00.002+08:00

i got something on my chest and i wanna get it off somehow
gosh girl why must it be so complicated
sometimes your on sometimes your off which issit
your just messing with my head and im acting cool with it cause i love you
gosh i dont want it to go away its like the 4th time and i hate it cause gahh i dont want it to happen again it sucks sucks sucks, i am single and ive been single for like? what dont know since i was born
i mean i had some experience but it went downhill every time, i should be happy im single i should be enjoying it but no, i don't want to i want to have what jerks usually to ruin it. Girls really are complicated and really hard to solve, sometimes i wish i have a mind reading gift so i could tell every move you are making. please please god help me sigh, i always have to see other people happiness but not mine, what i see is always sadness frustration and depression.
help me god i pray for you,

i know it will last but its not forever because "forever" is to cliche

2009-04-19T12:39:00.002+08:00

woahhhhhhhhhh its been so so so long ive updated my blog!
well anyways thats because no spammer come already damn bored sia
hahaha
well okay saturday
kat didnt wanted to go out cause she's tired, lol i already had plans if she's not going out with me
woooo! drink drink drink!
met up with zuzu taufiq zuzu, ate pizza hut YUMMY hahah zuzu cravings led us there :D
no pictures cause someone so slenger brought camera but no battery inside fooh
millions of applause kk! hahah!

after that we sat at the opposite side of P.S, chill smoke strum some guitars and made a song (:
called up hafiz, ram singh and alipo. All of these drinkers are heavy hahah!
shiok but the one manage to come is hafiz lol. when he came he said "aku tk minom tau"
i said okay, we shall see how.

walked to penin and bought glendyvodska!
went to fullerton and drank sat down played "tai-tee" drink drink
havent "senget" yet hahah so choke down more, then i wanted to meet A+ meat ass sandy! haha
she was at padang so yeah went there for awhile sat at padang finish the bottle!
lol hugged her and said goodbyes.

board bus 7 home, was waiting for kat to call hais tk call pon, so i left a certain msg.
then she replied was relived haha and my stomach and my head giving me really major problem
i really felt drunk last night shit -.-
well got home bathed and talked with kat(:
so yeahh it all ends with happiness some how hahaha

DRINK DRINK DRINK!

2009-04-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

Skate Skate Skate!

thursday skate day i guess
hahaha
effing late because of fat faggot jimmy :D
he never bath when he came outside of his house omg gross i know -.- hahaha
so met up with fiqq his friend and teck hui, so yeah skate skate then 2 came along
dont really know their names but they are good :D
they let me learn a few tricks so yeap hahah
mega cool day man , tired

i miss my baby :D
hahhah!
i hope she is doing alright now ^^

well simply now at home tired and very drain out.
i have my tea, my noodle, my lappy
yay im happy hahha

take care mates
dont take drugs just take blowjobs !

2009-04-09T12:54:00.002+08:00

<3

This is the girl i've been going out ever since February
and yeap she indeed made me happy this time
really appreciate it.

|hairy sticky barney baby|
^^v

2009-04-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

and lastly

Girls out there wanna buy some tanks?
yeah so do please please there is this girl from singapore selling off her own designs, i have seen it myself and i think its nice it attract a guy like me why not you check it out yourself :D

http://www.trashy-cans.blogspot.com

you can find the link on my link so take 5 min to check her outfits im sure you wont be disappointed

2009-04-06T21:22:00.003+08:00

This is the signboard board song!
I SWEAR AUNTIES CAN BE SO FUNNY WHEN THEY ARE KANCHIONG!
written by IDRIS !
AUTHOR BY IDRIS!
SONG MADE BY ME
INSPIRED BY?
LMAO
OBVIOUSLY AUNTIE!

and the next one is a song from Rocket Friday!
i was bored so i made a vid

2009-04-04T11:37:00.002+08:00

Friday:

OHHH i spend my friday with my old good friend :D
we skate and talked alot, and dude you never change one bit man
i like it but the others? i dont know what to say you know haha
okay whatever
we skate and before that i met up with taufiq because he wants his guitar back
sobbsss no more guitar at home D:
so off to city hall then met up with teck hui , chilled and talked bla bla
then after that :D i made an awesome song hahah !
called "fuck the streetwear" and "theres the signboard!"
hahaha damn fun taufiq has the video i shall upload it like soon if ive got it from taufiq
haha

taufiq left about 4 , so me and teck hui skate off to town yeah hahah he falling sick though can see the face like weak haha, but it didnt stop him from skating woo lol, met up with mom get cash to eat and stuff, and i saw my primary school bestfriend :DDDDDD she looking good, happy belatede birthday haslinna ! haha i know i didnt say anything that day because your friend were like looking at me one kind lol.

then skate skate back cityhall chill then off home,

Saturday:

GONNA MEET ME PIRATES :D

been so long ive met up with hanna ): i miss her i wanna kick her nose punch her and brutally torture her hahahaha :D
she said she is going to this youth thingy at clark quay, im like okay since i got cash for ez link haha!
then at night meeting up with ??? heheh i miss her so much too
???? went to chalet for 4 days so yeap im gonna like meet her today then come back home tomorrow wee (:
cant wait i hope ??? friends dont mind hah mcm extra XD lol!

okay other than that i have nothing to update so yeah
take care mates and blowjobs to all :D

2009-03-31T00:00:00.003+08:00

Monday bluesssssssss

woke up eyes so damn bloody tired no idea why , but i watched movie which came from jimmy's hard disk, damn shiok i tell you alot of great movies :D

well on saturday had jimmys party wooo

fun fun fun kecoh until cops came by and screen me and yong lian for skating hahah at 1.30 am

but fuck cops man its bullshit haha no "no skate" sign means no "no skate" sign!

haha but whatever,

the food was great the people was awesome me and yong lian just talk shits about the past omg how can i ever not forget that incident at festival for future

you know i know man , 3 secs blow punch at the face mate! hahah!

well yeah had a great time untill i forgot to get online for someone ! gosh feel sucky but nvm i guess she would understand, i miss her soooo much :D

hahah i wish i could like squeeze her and and takes lots lots of pictures with her hahaha

okay so obsess.

sunday still at jimmys house went back home about 9 yeah slept

so here i am spent my whole day watching movie and waited for that certain someone! and bloody hell she really took a long time to get online zzzz hahah nvm i miss her i miss her ^^

and something happen in the afternoon that cracks my heart open though and letting me put in a status of confusion and thinking too much, shall not open that topic for i want ... to be happy .. so that ...... we can still be friends, its a sacrifice i must make just for ......... sake

No worries im still fine and going !

and as you can see ive change my skin :D

nice or not? not nice fuck off hahah!

DISCO DISCO~~~ You dont mess with the ZOHAN!

Friday :D

2009-03-14T13:05:00.002+08:00

Friday is just as awesome yo (:

Yess i have a date and its an awesome date, its not like those scums -.- example? past : let me wait for three hours no show, empty promise, say it will but never do, left after meeting for 3 hours, haha yeah but this one is different its the whole day (:

3 pm met up with ??? then jyeah she was late omg lucky if not must blanje ice cream hahaha
yeahh she was 155 cm tall freaking cute sia :P
hahah i was wearing purple and she called me barney -.- how cute tsk hahah im not barney please im a big bad boy :D well started off with a smirk and time pass by walking through taka and started laughing non stop, went to ljs -_- like no other food already sia hahah okay so yeah she ordered dont know what i order combo 1 cant eat much crash diet :D hahah

well then ate slowly she laugh laugh smile smile (:
we ate like about 1 hour ? yeah hahah then 5 pm so fast 0.0 hahah
so went up to cinileisure get the tickets for Dragonball Evolution
such dissapoinment in that bloody fucking show FUCK HOLLYWOOD! GAHH he is a saiyan for fuck sake not a ozaro -.- hahaha
and yet again ??? was laughing at the show for alot of things lol "hidong mcm mane sikit"
yeahhh
she gave me sweets and i paid the tix she bought me ice cream :D
wee
hahaha then finish movie went to penin bought me some ciggs and yeah went off to esplanade for there's mosaic hahah 'mo' sa' ic' ahahah thats how its pronounce
and serious i didnt expect the scenery to be so beautiful, serious i didnt plan anything haha sat beside her *close* melted sia hahah! ok whatever so not she melted obviously XDDD k prasantan -.-

listen to good music and chat chat talk laugh 10.30 plus we headed home, she gave me a peace sign goodbye and a hug(:

bleargh! haha "barney barney"

Friday awesome (:

2009-03-07T14:38:00.002+08:00

Haziq/Vocals

Idris/BackupVocals

Taufiq/Guitars

This is my Acoustic band :D

its called Rocket Friday you guys can check us out at myspace

http://www.myspace.com/rocketfriday

do have a visit and have a listen to our music :D

i dont wanna wait for you in vain but i just love you i guess

2009-03-01T00:34:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY!!!

SHEESHA ? DRINK ? HIGH ? ELECTRO?

Friday was awesome man, no doubt the last picture you see there. That is how high i was on that specific day:D. And the girl over there with the blurry image is Tessa a sick in the brain with dirty jokes girl, and i kinda like it lol.

daytime was suppose to meet tessa like at 2 exact, so i was late as usual but this time its because of hafiz cause i dont know where he went not replying my msges(fuckhimseriously) haha, then i panic and thinking should i go or not, tessa was pissed at first then that asshole suddenly replied you should go out first bla bla bla im like -.- you dick, okay so i rushed down took a cab and get to far east less than half an hour. woots she was there waiting at the bus stop, kinda feel guilty though. so we hugged smoke met up with her girlfriend mellissa(sorry if i have the name wrong), bla bla bla.

Then hafiz came along with his shizzy tight shirt HAHAH, whatever head off to haji lane, straight to sheesha weeee lol smoked smoked and tessa is one hell of a smoker dont call me heavy cause this is one crazy maniac psycho girl(in a good way) smoking sheesha and ciggarattes at the same time, that hardcore! lol.

so we got booze and stuff played cards, bet while playing hafiz won alot gahh -.- asswipe, down came along leena and ram singh WAHH ram singh really entertaining when he came down hahah!

im gonna smack your tits one day with my fine fine hand :D

tessa and mellissa gotta head off to town, they thought we are tagging along, kinda like not cause we plan to stay all night sorry guys):

well the night goes on without them, shaking our heads dancing electro and stuff hah you know im like a rave-r whatever hafiz called me that day, we snort we drink happy sia stress gone :D like no no misery no past no future its just that point of time and its limitless

11 plus decided to go home, the weird thing is when i board the bus it got worst, reached home half dead already so yeah that is just about it :D

im glad i've met tessa that day woohoo lol

SATURDAY!!!

ZUZU?? AIE?? HANNA?? (:

had a bad hangover i think today, and went out with zuzu aie and her friend amir lol i dont know how to spell haha, went to botanic garden snap some pictures with her new D60 haha :D,

well i was suppose to watch movie with hanna and etc but yeah cant leave my adik adik alone right hahah kecian dorang

well im quite lazy to update about saturday cause i know its super fun, super not boring, super not like hobo's, super friends around.

unlike mofo's i used to know :D

well met up with hanna at night and i miss her like alot alot alot alott alot alot!!! knnbccb! FUCK YOU ill RIPPED YOUR HAIR OFF! CLIP ON EXTENTIONS! hahah! bestie you will kena one day *evil laugh*

then summers over playing at esplanade gosh they were AWESOME i swear their songs are related to my lovely life, :D

so that is just about it on saturday :D

loved it weee

pictures will be uploaded soon for saturday (: cause i know i have nice pictures muahaha

2009-02-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

Friday is the end of the week, and end of LPER project wee :D

morning test im late -.- but made it just in time!

well nevermind.

My classmate and I plan to go out today woots, go where shisha!

gerekk i tell you, everything is funny yeahhhh had fun like fuck.

these are the people who influence me to dance like a fool lol, fun though :D

leena brought the camera but the battery like an ants life, no battery so not much pictures.

hahah lame lame lame!

bought my only pack for ths week how cool, im quitting i think ? lol

just dont have the mood to smoke like boring already haha,

well tomorrow meeting up the people whom i miss so much :D

yeahhh you know who you are, FAHFA band BESTIAL DEVOTION! playing at beats tomorrow awesome awesome awesome!

BYE

2009-02-15T10:38:00.002+08:00

Hello helloooo

its been a fucked week :D and i dont care haha
im glad me and someone are in good terms, and own a blog somemore lol
ahh i got put new songs on me blog (: very nice songs by we the kings - secret valentine
"we'll write a songs that turns out the lights" i wish i could do that hahah,
Guess who is my secret valentine? obviously, ... bleargh lol
V.day didnt suck (: , zeeko came my place sat down outside my house and we made a awesome song, he might be our vocalist in Mannequin Masquerade, my band that is haha
we gonna make a comeback soon :D

anyways i miss hanna :D bestie ku cb asik kerje , i miss zuzu zang partner :D , i miss fiqqo brocore :D and especially i miss sya the girl with misai :D (jkin) haha
Meet up soon okay please please

exams coming in 3 weeks i havent touch my revision mode lol,
all i can think of is music now its driving me nuts just music music music! sounds melody GAH i love music hahah

okayyy goodmorning and im outs :D

2009-02-11T00:04:00.002+08:00

Just me and taufiq dancing kk ? haha happy

ngee ann library is so cool i swear to god LOL!

2009-02-08T18:23:00.002+08:00

woo saturday fun gille la siol!! hahahahah

i was suppose to meet hanna but hanna went to meet wan so yeah, no harm done haha

,well saturday went out with alippo, zeek, aie, zuzu, faiz , nyemi, cweka and sab

ahh it feels like old times but the girls came late,

haha

i swear its the best day :DDD

we were late.... bla bla bla i feel so lazy wanna tell the whole story hahah

but theres a video up there we all going crazy when this one restraunt tune in some trance music LOUDLY hahah

the yeah we dance like faggots XD the first part is me see ah see! lol

i miss them already D:

ALIPO GOING NS 13 march 2009

abang abang already hahah!

2009-02-05T19:23:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Twins (:

May all your wishes come true, i cant sms you guys so ill just post it up here.

i love you both i swear,

its so goddamn fast, now like what ive known you guys like closing up to 1 and half years

hah loved every moment of it :DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2009-02-04T00:31:00.002+08:00

LIVE N LOADED

Fucking awesome set , bands , mosh , and mates!

gahhhh damn funn i swear to god, went to the first show of live n loaded it was fucking worth it i tell you.

i was in fucking Tv lorrrr brag much

hahah jimmy got me the tix thank you big guy i love you HAHA

reach 7 pluss, started of with some guy with great songs hahah

for this cycle is there too, finding michelle, vertical rush and most importantly AVA .

this is just not any other gigs, its an epic gig with live feed cameras ! ahah

and nick was shooted at the very first few seconds of the show -.- haha

lucky bastard hHAHAHA

so sad that rudy is going away to study for 1 and half years, really awesome set guys, a vacant affair - reasons to leave buy their album its worth the money

12.90 if im not wrong go to the stores now and grab one!!

hahaha

i love local music XD

i hope it wont fucked up the scene after they post this new show on tv.

hahaha

yeah goodbye, and i swear i wanna mosh again and still play music :DDD

2009-02-01T20:28:00.003+08:00

DoTa & Be a parent day for me,

i guess today i feel more more mature thinking, give me this answer to the tagboard

IF you can answer this, Do you know how mother/father feels.?

Like during at home when your own child is having theier time of life.

i know that answer and i know how it feels, and yess its not easy but i can get it done, only for a day, i've cooked, clean, pack, do laundry, take care of my brothers and still have time for them.

it wasnt easy but i know how it feels to be a parent, so you bimbo plastic spoiled bastard should really be lucky that your family is wealthy. I'm not saying im poor or rich, im living with a average paying parent but my parents are never home due to some reasons which you people dont understand and i think its really making me think much more straight rather then getting wasted and pulling myself down with such small things. Maybe this was my fate, family first and getting to know what is it to be a parent, an adult. Being that way, makes things easy in life and keep the cirlce goes round.

i really hope you get what i mean and understand, for i have experience what is it to be a parent of 2 children. I know i sound kinda arrogant here, but what would you know? yeahh

woked up like what 10 plus ? straight do laundry bla bla bla bro woke up

and i made them pancakes today. wasnt that nice cause too much water but yeah still good enough to eat. so after that chilled for awhile on me lappy then let bro play DoTa, he is getting good i tell you, one day he will destroy me with his Lightning Revanant haha.

hours passed by did alot of chores i wasnt tired i guess, so kept doing it like on and on.

about 5 pluss i cooked again, curry fried rice, macam mama siol aku aahhahaahahah.

but whatever i think its nice and really cool experimenting foods and combining them haha.

hours later....

now on me lappy like blogging realising how the world is crap.

and wandering why i cant be with you? and i know why

your right i was selfish not to think about your feelings, i cared only mine.

i miss you i swear i miss you alot i dont hate you , i still love you i think ?

maybe, lets be friends again please, i wanna talk to you again, making me feel so uneasy with myself, hmmmm okay whatever

so much for expressing, anyways im doing a proper recording of the song "say Goodbye" but the tittle will be change to " goodbye just aint enough" , so catch it soon like real soon (:

and yess please taufiq helping me with all my songs, i do thank him alot !

please baby taufiq dont be a bitch and think i dont wanna put your name i do appreciate HAHA,

lets play L4D soon hahaha

well yeahh

Valentine coming, i dont care i swear -.- i think ?

gahh whatever

alone again for a year ? why not i guess ...

later!

2009-01-26T00:18:00.002+08:00

Today i just finish my new song :D

and i did a cover of Tiger Lily by matchbook romance

for the new song its something i really wrote with all my heart and it happen to me, i cant really think of any words but i just had this feeling to write it down so yeah, so please please ..

enjoy and hope you like it

For tigerlily, cause i was damn bored haha so i had fun with myself, (:

and as you can see i can upload it to blog dont know why so i just put the link there ^.^v

Parker - Miserly Lies:

http://www.imeem.com/people/lYXNPO/music/O3uUf02F/idris_parker_miserly_lies/

Lyrics:

The blue moon says it all
rejected feeling cast down upon me
what i know, its a lie
i cant say that is alright
the lost bond we had yesterday night

dont say that im not enough
i brought love like no one did
dont you ever forget about me

so tell me how it goes
tell me how it goes
tell me how should it happen
cause i wont be here anymore x2

dont let the best of me
racing through crowd
struggling within me
forcing myself not leave

Parker - Tigerlily Cover:

http://www.imeem.com/people/lYXNPO/music/BF_YcPTz/idris_parker_tiger_lily_cover/

2009-01-25T01:16:00.003+08:00

wahh saturday, i thought it was dull and boring day again
but its not, went out to shisha yeahhh shisha siott. golly birthday falls on 23rd jan
happy birthday bitch hahaha
:D

so so meet feeno first at clementi but i was late due to forgetting stuff to take especially money -.-
hahaha
well yeah then take train to bugis bla bla bla go swee lee buy strings
bla bla bla mimi was with us though hahah bla bla bla hmmmm
then waited for golly like for more than 3 hours crazy woman ndont know do what hahah!

well reached haji lane alrd
bla bla bla we shisha smoke bla bla bla hahaha

so gereks asap so many many
then hanna wan ibrahim leez was there
lol
and their friend which i dont know who their names is

yeah they shisha toooo and wan smoke 0.0 wow shocking when i saw him smokes
hahha
yeah whatever his pasal not mine

went to SP after that
fiqqo brought down deck i SKATE with him then he lose hahahhaha
i hurt my ankle pretty bad i think
but dont care la break pon break laa lol
anws tired alrd its like 1.21 am now

nights people suck balls and suck dicks do deepthroat like no other
good night

2009-01-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

todayy schoool was okay, went for S&W only
yeah yeahhh superdalic mann then off home get cash and go bukit timah
play L4D with hafiz and taufiq, serious shit that place ahh fucking useless damn nabei kind of place to play that game
hahaha
well whatever, play paly play until fed up then me and taufiq play DoTa, hahaha
looks like i can pwn him siaaaa! lol
yayy
after the games chillled at mac took some pics .. shalll upload sooner or later i guess
hahaha
^.^v

now me got new number, ask me personally if you want it (:

2009-01-19T22:57:00.002+08:00

Sunday:

ohhhhhhh yeahh sunday met up with hidayah gohh((:

she is short oh my god XD she seem so tall in pictures :x

hahahaha

anws accompany her to study on that dayyy, the topic was like chemical and stuff

its science ? who doesnt loves science hahah

but it was an advance science for me so i dont know much about it

hahah

yeahhhhhhhhhh meet at 6 pluss she was early ..-.- 5 mins only hahahah

head to esplanade library then chilled

lots of funny noises hahahahahahahaha

woots XD

then her friend came by i forgot his name OH MY GOD SORRY

gahh XD

he is funny i swear hahah abit lame but funny ? yeahh

who cares so yeah hahah

they eat long john yet again long john strikes again hahaha fast food = FAT!

hmmm the fat bastard with big tits and ass is there again like everytime hahah

he also one weird felloowwwww

hahahahahah!

well after all that decided to went home ^.^v

Monday:

WOAHH TODAY DAMN CB TO MY HOLE!

gahhhh whatever to ishak and rahman(typical malay teachers)

ive cut my hair? they like ask me to cut again and giving sacarstic comments

FUCK YOU two words FUCK YOU

serious, you fucking malay teacher have big ego on your forehead and like to make people lives more difficult

gahh whatever

the part i cant take it is when rahman punch me for doing something wrong but not intentionally

wtf sia i didnt mean it, people makes mistakes jeez im not born perfect

-.-

whatever didnt go to second class CABUT wahh confirm debar like fuck i swear, jeez so yeah head home with taufiq and hafiz, before that met up sasa "shen de ma" HAHAHAH lvl 10

well well he didnt like my menthol ciggs so what! hahahah he didnt buy it at last return his 4.50

hahaha

whatever so yeahh

went to taufiq house chilled record my new song,

will post it sooner or later!

hope you guys like my songs XD hahah

((: take care

fyi im still hurt by what you have done

im hurt....

..... very much

2009-01-16T17:24:00.003+08:00

hellooo earthlings

i wanna say thanks to some people,

thank you hanna bestie for like talking to me

fiqqo for like helping me in a way?

zuzu<3>

sab and nyemi(: my beloved friends, they hear me out and teared infront of them yesterday, well thats because of the liquor i cant control my emotion and stuff i just snapped i guess

ahh and taufiq hafiz gosh you fucking badots always make me laughh, especially taufiq you damn botak bitch, im glad to have you guys (:

i swear,

about me stopping drinking i dont know? maybe i will, im not sure. maybe im still not over her

i miss her alot been crying in busses not letting anyone know about it, but i know i must stop this shit,

the most sad thing ever is that, every girl i liked/loved said the L word and a few weeks or days later, they will say they like me as a friend. Kinda tick me off abit because

everyone wants to be friends with me only, i know im not good enough for anyone -.-

kinda depressing, and i have been faking a smile to let my friends know that im perfectly okay.

and PLEASE! PLEASE! its not only about girls, theres one more!! that i dont wish to tell because its so complicated that none will understand, sab and nyemi knew the recent story so let them be

whatever, but i really appreciate it alot when they hear me out.

yeahh

okay let me give you a diagram

; ?? (problem) + dump by a girl which crushes my heart so badly

EQUALS = ?????????? WHAT?

yeahh

if you know the answer good for ya well yeahh hmmmm

all i want is just happiness

i do have with my friends, they did give a little bit of ?? and ?? here and there, of course they did.

but sometimes when you have a special feeling and like this thing you expect them to have when they told you they alrd did and bla bla bla so hard to explain.

yeahh

i hope you get me, or not some sore losers passing by "oh this guy so emo shit sia"

whats that suppose to mean -.- you got not feelings

yeahh what if i have abit of girl girl kind of movements

whatever, thats me.

ending it here shall tell no further.

mari kita rakyat singapura~~ ahahhaah

2009-01-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

i gotta be honest to the world,
i didnt stop smoking, i started drinking and its alot
ever since new year, because of what
alot of things

and someone have said something , and that something is saying that im a selfish person
i whine about my problems to her everytime,
"yea it always bout u and ur probs. other pple got their probs too. but they dont whine so much. sorry to say this, i do care, but really whut cann i do much? i see i can just do nothing except lending ears."
woahhhhhh so first of all im a selfish bastard i care for myself more than other people,
i guess saving other people guts is call selfish, saving people r/s is selfish
making people feel good about themselves is selfish, making lovebirds into one is selfish
sacrificing time for a friend is selfish, consulting people is selfish and many more that i have done is selfish
woww i really do think about myself.
you can do much you choose not to, you said the L WORD THE L WORD FOR FUCK SAKE
who said that! HUH! did you mean it?!?!?!
do you even care about how i feel
ITS ALWAYS ABOUT ME, ive come to you everytime about my problem because i know you could calm me down and just make it right,
i guess not you were just pretending to care like my parents
gahh like my parents! LIKE MY PARENTS!

one thing i ask for is to be pampered LOVED to be that guy you will think of!
NOOOOOOOO no one could help me
ME? I CAN HELP ANYONE, i know what i have done , i dont know if people appreciate it
you obviously dont appreciate me? RIGHT?
why do you think i share my problems, because ihave lack of attention at home
dont you get it ? ATTENTION !
you dont care about my feelinggs not one single bit. hurt me so much
said you love me before now you like me so so much as a friend <<< WHAT DOES THAT MEAN
is that a trickery or what?
maybe i ask for sympathy but i still get my fucking head up i dont go around pissing people off dont i. maybe i do im sorry
you said you wanna talk to me but you always reply 2 words .. how issit suppose to be a conversation if its just 2 words coming out
i know two words will come from my mouth ASS-HOLE yeah that is the best one that could probably come out from my mouth
jeez ive been good to everyone .. ive tried to do good deeds ive played my cards right,
what do i get
ENDING MISERY HEARTBROKEN SHIVERING HANDS HANGOVERS AND LOST APPETITE OF EATING.

im nothing to anyone RIGHT NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING! GAHH fucking useless fat pig -.-
I need a fucking liquor a beer or something
put some poison or something -.- die betteer DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE suck satan cock! AND IM FUCKING SELFISH REMEMBER THAT

SELFISH! SELFISH! FUCK THAT IM SELFISH!
I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONE EXCEPT MYSELF WOW! WOW! WOW!
GAHH!

2009-01-13T20:08:00.002+08:00

woooo alrighty then
had a great day i guess,
hmmm yeahh should be
off to school like about 11.45 suppose to meet sasa but he was not there as i was late hahah sorry dude!
well off to 1 pm class jeez reach met up with taufiq hafiz leena the usual, then off to class teacher didnt came so yeah i was in school for about 1 hour plus only and my attendance is tick into 1 instead of 0 hahah good.

got home chilled cook lil bro food and stuff then on me lappie watch Yes man
zuzu has been bugging me to watch it, so yeah woo i watch it and it has motivate me into another person i guess
im gonna try saying yes to almost everything. i dare myself! arghh
yeah but not to the extend limits. (:
thank you zuzu for forcing me to watch
really hit me in the head. ive been telling people that one choice changes everything, but i didnt quite tell myself that and keep myself above my own game
i realise that now,
well dont know what to do now, i guess ill update my blog skin hahaha
and i gained weight omfg man -.- fuck now _ _ KG fuck need to lose 15 kg if can, one month 5 kg? yeahh
and gahh my hair suck to my balls jeeezzzz hahah

about my life? family sucks
love life? i dont love anyone besides my close friends they know who they are yeah
and maybe i do like someone new? or maybe im still stuck on sya.
i dont know i can wait for you, but not forever. it hurts though, but whatever.

and i miss, mrs swan!!!!!!!!! hahaha (:

2009-01-11T09:36:00.002+08:00

helloo hellooooooooo sunday todayyy
meeting zeeko today play guitar together hahah,

well yesterday ive cut my hair and it aint lovely i tell you
i look effing gay to the fucking core -.-
i hate it jeez make me look like laguna beach series people, gahh
asswipe auntie hahahhaa
after haircut went to cityhall met up with aie fiqqo and hanna
ahh miss them much, went off to penin fiqqo change cash then bla bla.
saw nisya bla bla went off to eat at kfc kecoh gileeee.
ahahaha
then went off to uob slack, saw mimi awie and imran if im not wrong,
they come it just became even more noisy hahaha
wth kan
hahah then i ask hanna to text iika if she wants to go home with me,
then she lembab malas nk tunggu body aching everywhere, head home.
reached home on lappy then no fucking mood already -.- dont wish to tell.
i swear everytime you know, gahh wth la eh nvm
i dont care,

have a nice day to myself, im a selfish jerk what.
am i tell me, since the day you met me have i been selfish ?
think only about myself only.

2009-01-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

hellloo finally updating huh
but not much though .
been feeling so sad this week, gotta stay strong just to fake it to mates yeahh
but nvm i will be okay i think on the outside? yeah
fucking shit hate myself so much haha
everythings just normal, friends like drifting away from me.
yeahh
so today fridayyyy me zuzu, aie went to watch ong bak 2 that just release yesterday
how cool the movie is, you should watch we three now practicing so can be the best fighter hahaha

yeahh gosh, my heart says not to update. because i dont want you people to know how i feel inside, i should keep it inside and just suffer alone. yeahh

i sound like a girl -.-
whattt a bitch gahh

goodnight fellow mates
misses alot of people

2009-01-02T10:14:00.002+08:00

Happy new yearr,

though i cant see whats so happy about it for me,
how i spend it? it was fun and okay to me.
Met up with hannabestie first, then walk to penin buy some cigarattes
sheesh i was in a sad bad mood kind of way i think, went off to marina
chill for fucking fuck sake there's alot of couple, freaking irritating.
i hate it, shit feeling makes people cry only.

saw fahfa at mini steps, we chilled oh yeah hanna bought me starbucks caramel frappe (:
thank you bestie love ya much
well after that i had to go off to sentosa, sab zeeko nyemi cweka ask me to spend it with them this year as for last year i didnt, so yeah i said okay obviously i thought of spending with SOMEONE! but nvm maybe im so low class not even a ugly bitch would want me. okay so out of the topic, hanna met up with lucy fahfa followed hanna to marina barage.

then okay im at sentosa palawan towers, saw sab hugged her she hug tight siot, whatever hug nyemi then sat down with faiz, it was the starting of the night, siloso beach party have started haa how fun mannn
i went down for awhile then went back up to smoke shit i saw sab and the rest drinking already im like its too early 0.0, then after that sab was in pain
gahh what shit laa why go and drag mcm siak ah, but nvm i took care of her, put some minyak on her body(stomach) they mix this raspberry vodka with orange juice, they called it screwdriver, i have no idea why they call it that but its nice as hell.
so yeahh muse came along he brought 3 anchor along he drank one can, so do i i think
haha whatever im gonna shorten the story, bla bla bla then got one part of the night so entertaining, bangla came to the spot where we are and there were some friendly matreps and which my cousin is there too haa shit ass the bangla tried to steal something from them hahah! then kena whack like fuck the matts all shouted "EHH BUDAK MELAYU KITE KASI SAMA BANGLA LINCA!!" wth -.- im the malay over there i just watch haha there were like what 10 bangla or more over there they could take them, but they choose to run and leave one behind he kena rabak, he fell on the ground and stuff got kicked punch nailed at gosh so harsh sia this bastards but it was kinda worth it to watch hahaa,
so yeah bla bla bla then about what time i was pissed then okay, zeeko and i drink
then my cousin brought up absolute then i took about what 15 to 20 shots of it ahh but was okay. so thats it i spend my new year with my old favourite mates and still my favourite, for they listen to my problem and keep bugging me to tell them on that day, i told EVERYTHING. they know i have some problems and wish to help in a way yeahh

so that day i drank alot i think let me list down?
okay? haha
BEER: baron, tiger, anchor
Liquor:raspbery+orangejuice=scredriver(lamesiolname)and 15 to 20 shots absolute vodkas(RAW)

brag much.. well whatever took 963 home with cweka and sab, i miss my stop so drop at bp with sab hugged her told her to take care of herself.
bus back 184 slept like a baby in both buses

got home i slept the whole day, granny went home already god look after her please dont let her go so soon, pray much for her to live longer.
now im all alone in this stupid house -.-
my parents are not home never will be dont know when will they be at home hais
):

nvm not as if anyone care -.-

2008-12-27T00:20:00.002+08:00

LEFT4DEAD lan gaming day wooo
hahaha

Today! wan wanted to go to town i said lets play lan as well hahah
thought of playing dota or CS end up we play Left4Dead the IT game now which i have like completed it on xbox weeks ago -.- hahah
i didnt know its a computer game too, till i found out when i was out with gab
well whatever.
haha

went out like about 4 because people was chatting with me like dont know why so sudden alot hahah, and reach town like what the fuck jamm like hell gahh like im the driver like that hahah , anyways reach dhoby about 5 like that hah, called fiqq where he is then met up at LJS;macdonald house area, hahah i didnt know that hanna was there fooh i miss her loads i swear hahha, the sister too but chicken she go look for house with daddy-o thats what hanna told me hahah, off to the place while walking we saw fahfa michelle juju shahfiq kas and dont know who the other one XD,
said hi they tag along but didnt play
woo woo hahah i swear we were so kecoh sotong punye hahha
bla bla bla
then LEFT4DEAD omg i got the "BEST" survivor teammates in the world
gahh if the world is gonna end with zombies crawling around singapore i dont think i will team up with them they will leave me alone and die hahahahaha
kecoh i tell youu wahhh shiok i wanna play again but just now not enough cash so yeah hahah
if i play at home with my bro that noisy wahh you could imagine how much noise we could produce today if we were sitting beside each other,
it would be swearing, cursing, shouting and loads more hahahahhaha

well finish already then mimi akir hayqal came along hahha didnt expect that, then i bought cheeseburger haiyaa eat also wanna tell mcm cb siak. hahaha AND WHAT THE FUCK juju bite me and its not a normal bite its a CANNIBALISM BITE, i swear it hurts like fuck, gahh now i got one chap juju on my hand hahahah
whatever it will heal.

yay okay bla bla bl chilled at SMU bla bla bla gone home alrd.
now here waiting for a girl to online dont know if she will or not hah
whatever, imissher gahh -.- i must stop thinking about her though, but i just cant what to do la kan if your in love.

chao chao!

2008-12-26T03:06:00.002+08:00

*Thurs*

oh wow today skate haha woke up in the morning had breakfast mac. wow much my parents came home in the morning like almost to 12 pm yeah so whatever to them i swear they pissed me off starting of the day after i woke up.
i love you parents, righttt -.-

anyways aie gave a message didnt reply was too tired to do it, fiqqo call like few mins later no choice picked up, bla bla bla skate? yeah alright?... ask aie zuzu along
woo best zang buddy think she can zang mee you learn it properly first hahah
chilled at citylink lose shamlessly to fiqqo at skt hahah what the fountain beside david blaine btol hahah, then after that tour around look for ciggs haha
i swear we like homeless people look for cigarattes hahah.
its fun though. bla bla bla im so tired to elaborate the day
so yeah bla bla bla almost get caught red handed for stealing
aie bought me drink ty very much (:

head home now here
sya went off early , tired pey pompan muahahhaa
i slept and left her talking alone again im so so so sorry k
:P

Milk + Biscuit = Santa bring me present!

2008-12-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

Its Christmas woo
where all choc eater must eat chocolates till thier teeth fall off
hahaha
yesterday which is today i slept at 5 am plus and woke up 12 pm ..
get ready and met the usuals i guess
thought of meeting sya, but since she got bfdae party to attend
and and its Fate birthday woo happy birthday (:
its on the 24th

well today supposingly did nothing i guess
was actually bored?
but at night i got hyper with fiqq and aie haha
they know what i mean HAHAHA
"satu kocok dua kocok tiga kocok"
hahahhahahahahahahahahhahaahahahahahahhahaha
sorry marxie cant slack kinda sleepy alrd
thanks for the 2 bucks anyways hahah!

now at home talking with sya the tembams nk mampos mcm nk gigit sampai koyak
hahahah
eating with milk and biscuit! woo shmelting action in the mouth hahah
well
merry christmas to everyone i hope santa give me a big dildo so i could show off to everyone
hahahahha

^.^ take care much loves parker

2008-12-23T20:39:00.002+08:00

well okayy today so boring i swear,
haha
yesterday night lol i fell asleep talking to sya HEH sorry la deyy
hahaha tertido, but i dont know who shut down my lappy sia nabei some bastard
nye ni hahah
now i have no idea weather she got talk to me not hahaha
anyways today all i did is play dota LOL
dota like what 7 games, all win except one time XD
haha
loser sia anyways tomorrow christmas EVE haha
hahah bored bored bored bored
why must you online so late huh,
bloody hell hais hais
i dont really talk about my feelings in here hahahaha weird kan blog = fuck
hahaah
if i were to type feelings down i would just make a fuss, people will bother me
haha
i like attention but not like that ^^
well okay okay mom home early welcome to hell idris,
wee smoke one stick only so good sia parker foohlermak bawah nenek aku nye pepek haha

welll nothing to say alrd bye bye bye!

2008-12-21T14:56:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a chilly windy day yoooo hahahah
out with aie fiqqo fahfa and the rest celebrating safwan birthday
happy birthday haha , no offence i dont get the point when you celeb you drink yeah.
but its alright since its not a vodka or what so ever shit, its just an appetizer drink
hahah yeapp.

well today i clean me room zuzu send me some songs haha, yeahh quite related to some things maybe i dont know?
yeah so today i decided to record my new song which i wrote with gabby gabe me bassist.
its mostly about myself, you will get the idea when you read the lyrics.
so here it is enjoy mates.

Summertime(demo) - Idris (parker)

this summer is over im here all alone,
i cant think of anything or anyone now
the lies i had was just a thought

through my eyes it has been deceived
telling myself that you wouldnt see
shut my eyes and put me to sleep

i feel like an outkast to the world
cant you see
you know how i feel inside
its not that wrong
no, its never right

this summer is over im here all alone,
i cant think of anything or anyone now
the lies i had was just a thought

the wind is blowing through my hair
erase my mind and i think its fair
get it right then maybe ill pray

pick myself up and think its alright
i dont know if i can make this right
faking a smile so no one will ask

2008-12-19T20:57:00.003+08:00

i update three times today HAHAHAHAH

^^

i know tonight gonna be a good chat night
skali with sya woo webcam with her hahah kecoh abis took some pics of her
belo girl show all her bears XD
then webcam with hanna kejap but it was dark hahahah
then with golly XD
mcm2 hahah so tonight happy chatting with her ((:
as you can see her pics all hahahaha how much fun we're having ^^

imissherloadssiol hahaha

2008-12-19T19:00:00.004+08:00

This is the Kit Cat Dolls

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

MEGA TRANSVESTITE!

SO freaking bored at home decided to watch vids the whole whole whole day hahahahaha

in the afternoon chatted with some people

yeahh, then share vids with golly hahah wth she really enjoy it -.-

hahah hanna went to simei to apply hairstyling course, cheyy next year schooling

goodluck for your interview on whatever date i forgot hahaha XD.

gahhh nothing to do

and you know im sick today fuck , and fiqq told me HAHAHAH fiqq TOLD me to MASTURBATE, later my sickness will go away, im like WHAT THE FUCK ? which science department you studied in hahaahhaah! everyday people finding ways to cure cancer, he can easily say masturbate hahah! WHAT THE FUCK MAN hahaha.

chillliosss hahahaha

i miss playing lan games i swear to god now got this new awesome game which i have for xbox 360, its an awesome game call "Left 4 Dead", i swear you guys must play this hahah

damn fun killing those zombies bastards hahaaa,

well wanna stop blogging here, waiting for a good chat later at night

hahahahahahahaha

NIGHTS PEOPLE, best kan parker start blogging again all the merepek all coming back XD

now currently chatting with sya((:

2008-12-19T14:49:00.002+08:00

okay i finally wanna update me blog hahah

anyways yesterday went skate woo

met up with shahfiq first god that guy so pro alrd

switch tricks? fuck you man hahaha

then fiqqo arrive

hahah

whatever skate sakte

met the rest wee chillio

ate ice cream and just chilled , i can ollie 4 decks siol

haahah then me wanna act smart play distance i ending up hurting my knee and

cant skate properly wtf man

hahah

so chilled and smoke woo lawrence was there too

as usual WL go gaga over him hahahahahah

the best part is where he must leave alrd

everyone said bye wahhh hahahah

such a hot kid XD

off to marina chill till dont know what time

slept in the bus 7 reach home bla bla chattted with golly till late haha

^.^v , i update alrd booo ! hahhaaa

dayspastijustmissyoumore

2008-12-10T09:50:00.001+08:00

MY BLOG IS DEAD

IM DEAD

just dont come here no more ..

i wont be writing any songs anytime soon
i wont be myself till whenever

2008-12-07T18:09:00.003+08:00

Yo yo yo

fun saturday man skate and chill ? what could you ask more
well one more thing for me, well not a thing a person thats all yeah
met fiqq and aie and dhoby almost 5 around there yeah then wow zuzu deck nice choice of deck
smooth sailing for me to skate that deck haha
tight grip and woo obviously ahha
meet the rest at citylink
yeah
they like sit down there like gundu i also dont know what to say
yeah
so skate there awhile then move on to marina
then me and fiqq saw BIRD "fahfa" hahaha bird la sangat
gosh miss that boy boy face of his hahaha , he with michelle and juju
so yeah said hi then me and fiqq SKT lol been awhile ? yeah
whatever so i gantung too tired hahah
but i was wining :p

okay skate skate then off to eat KFC ! hahha had a chat then two banglas nowhere to sit so me pity those dark merchants, and let them sit at our empty side lol
me and fiqq talk alot of stuff
stuff you guys aint suppose to know, ^^
talk eat talk eat bla bla
then almost 6.30 then i said meeting hanna later woo yeah bestie i miss her loads haha
so meet her at suntec took decks and skate off there wooooo hahaha then we saw fate
omg so the unexpected to see her lol , but nice to see her chubby face again
then hanna havent arrive so we were bored then we went up to toy'r'us while doing that we were shouting hanna! HANNA! hahah then say are you hanna ? omg no hahaha went inside the store from the entrance to the exit where there staff wraping gifts haha i thought hanna would be there so we shouted hanna hanna again then one girl like "you guys looking for hajar?"
"us: yeah we are" "girl: oh hajar eh ? she went off already" hahah and we were like omg hanna surely downstairs already hahahha
then we go down make noise calling hanna bla bla again hahah then saw her i shouted HANNA
lol people were like looking at me, as if i care hahah imagine you lost a sister XD
i bet you be like us muahahaha

after that return to marina hanna looks beat from work so yeah she left early
something happen dont wanna tell muahahah
neither happy or sad kind of thing you cant know thats all ?
lol
okay
im so so so lazy to type

i think i wanna go play D'ota
wooo lol im getting expert you know dont play play hahah h

^.^
imissyoulikeahellloadsgirl

2008-12-05T20:22:00.002+08:00

this week just suck badly i swear

i feel like killing myself stab my cock and put a bullet in my brain

seriously nothing has gone right since last saturday

i hate hate hate my dad

he really likes to make me pissed off and feel so shitty about myself

and nothing has been right everything just went so wrong

why must this happen to me, it sucks i swear

to be loved by your own parents and all you get is a turn down.

another thing that brought me down which has happen a month ago

hais, i wish not to talk about it

if i could just turn back time and made it happen earlier i would and none of this would have happen sigh ):

DONT tell me life has its up and down YESS I DO KNOW

oh for fuck sake i know ..

all i ask for now is to be love YES LOVE, its LOVE "LOVE"

i know i have friends love I KNOW i can feel it,

lets see weather you guys can understand what im trying to say here

and yo most people out there DONT cherish what they have i swear to god

if you guys know how it feels to be fucking alone tell me

I DO omfg jeez -.-

just one wish one wish! come true please,

dont let her forget the love for me that she have gave,

i wont forget how she said it i swear

Friday & Saturday

2008-11-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

Friday

______

well friday simply went out with the rest hahah sallys playing releasing dia album

and they keep saying after four years we finally come out with a album hahaha

it was the best set ever

nothing interesting happen on friday so yeah we'll skip to the saturday shall we

Saturday
_______

OH MY GOD like finally meeting sya after 3 freakin long weeks i finally get to see her haha

we said meet up 3.30, in the end SOMEONE was late hahha

i knew she's gonna be late so i purposely go out 3.30 exact fooh lucky me , if i didn't do that

haha i must wait for 45 mins hahaa

met up at railing we hug and went to buy ciggs at penin , sya bagus tauuu tk smoke 1 week ((; keep it up ^^

yeah after that we went to funan IT mall then wth i want to eat i ask her where to eat , she replied "anything"

hahahahahahahaahaah im like KFC nice woo lets eat , found out the sits were like crap haha

so went to mac instead she ate cheeseburger apple pie medium coke haha me eat chicken foldover FULL DETAIL BEBS hahaha

well i forgot to tell you that she look AWESOME, i melted when i saw her im like wow, wtf man get a hold of yourself its sya hahah, okay chill while i was eating i cant stop looking at her hahah

too attractive alrd, i like her tied up her woo nice , and she's in denial saying "tk lawa kan i know hais" always you know hahaha but as usual im there to make it better and messed it up at the same time ^^ and most of all people keep saying eh tu sya eh jambu per XD, im like ahh? step blurr ahaha XD

after all that went to marina chilled was trying to watch movie at my ipod then cannot see due to sunlight hahah

whatever, ssaw feeno bla bla bla met HF bla bla bla they were sitting down usual as always then saw hanna wooo toy r us siot ! HAHA okay then sya need to meet friends

so yeah accompany her less then 2 mins she said later it will be akward haha so yeah hugged her tightly till she get off the ground heh

best right (:

night falls alrd watched sallys yet another great set im sure but alot of M.M so irritating haha

then saw raf and bla bla i saw akir mimi awie ask them to slack with me wooo gerek haha

then play guitar .. meet up the rest sat one place and chilled woo okay cool

then text sya bla bla then she came we went to marina to buy drinks haha she bought medium coke again haha i bought double choc fooh been awhile i drink those stuff hahah

it was really great being around sya hahaha then went to the mini stairs

haha sat

then we talked , bla bla bla then decided to meet the rest back ahaha

we reach there and guess what our beloved girl here hahaha forgot to take her wallet

i thought she is joking with me wannna 1-0 with me hahaha skali i saw her panic eyes haha

then yeah so we hurried back haha then luckily the wallet is still there and the valuables are there hahah

she was like oh my god my IC inside gahhh bahh grrrr, i told her to chill no one will take she said hahaha they will say they never take but they did! lol so garang sia this makcik,

so yeah found it gave back to her she gave me a hug for it awww sweet much ahha

okay im so tired to tell the rest

but yeah im like so happy i see her that day really made me super duper fuber uber bubble happy hahah yeahh

i hope to see you soon and VERY SOON

i hope you had an awesome time with me too (:

i surely did

okay mates tired siot type mesti panjang hahah

2008-11-27T16:20:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD what a boring day
i didnt went to school cause they are going Pasir ris for some CIP work
and i wont waste my time to go to school and go back because of my hair
haha
so yeah decided to stay at home
did nothing but watch stupid porns , avatar and skate vids
gosh so bored
hahaha
anyways that video up there is one of my skate heroes rodney mullen, he is a legend skater
and made me stay skating as a hobby of mine (:
well, i dont know what to do.
i want to msg sya but kinda like disturbing her school hours so yeah nvm ill wait
boredddd fuck bored
been more then 4 days i never buy a cigarette pack gosh the temptation is there
and the crave is there
but i gotta like get a grip lol
i will buy though later , hahahahahaahhahahahah okay
i just change my blog skin <<>
nice nice ? nice right i know any how do XD

3 weeks past, all i think now is weather you still love me ):
hais i dont know laa if i can like wait cause being patience has been my task for all my life
or is it the task in my life, sometimes im just confuse with myself. sometimes i wish i could just
escape escape with all this fickle minded options, if i stay i'll hurt myself but be close to you, but if i go
and leave you , it will just make me even worst and i dont even know will you be happy .
its going to be a month, you know i hate him for what he have done, not only him to those who are not soft hearted and would dare to step beyond guy limits -.- .
CONFUSE gahh what am i suppose to do, an answer will pop soon i guess ......

well okay too much drama for today
imissyou

2008-11-23T23:38:00.001+08:00

More Than Friends - Idris&Gabriel

This song is new(:
and specially dedicated to _ _ _ _ _ _' _ _ _ _

Verse 1
My heart stopped, for a second
i never felt so alive
i've heard about your past
i've always wondered why

Chorus
so take my hand and we'll run away
and i'll say, and i'll say
and i'll scream, and i'll shout
i love you

verse 2
when you stuck with him
all i see is tears
would you be happy,
if i told you through your ears
i promise you, when we meet again
i'll give the hugs that you crave

*chorus*

verse3/(bridge??)
just know that i 'm the best you'll ever have
i'll be the one who'll catch you when you fall
i'll be the smile on your face
you'll be the one that fits my heart

slowdown/2ndbridge
i'll say, i'll say, i'll say
i love you

*chorus*

END ENJOY ^_^V

2008-11-23T10:51:00.001+08:00

Burp A Boy(:

Yesterday was fun (: i finish my new song and played guitar with hanna, gotta admit she is really good haha.
met fahfa and hanna first then off to KFC, and i swear to god i cant eat KFC no more hahah very fattening i shall eat fish lol like teck hui told me
aneroxic bitch -.- hahah, nisya met us and she gave me that cookie fooh i tell you its delicious, it melts in your mouth and it can just make you faint hahah.
first time though i get a famous amous cookie from someone haha^^
well whatever, went to cermin not the exact usual place near the stairs there
chilled and played guitar, then came along WL and shima, fir or someone brought a cake i didnt expect anything so ill just play along.
in the end it was for fir and nisya, i didnt mind (:
well yeah happy birthday guys tomorrow wanna wait 12MM like
cekik darah pulak hahahaha ok ok
and to those who wish me ystd night haha thx (: appreciate it.
lol and sya tried to make it special by msging it at 12MM then she forgot XD super la that girl, but nvm at least she remembers(:

well that was yesterday, today kinda suck hahah i woke up my parents or brothers didnt even wish me or notice it was my birthday, the only family member that wish me is my fav. aunt, SERIOUS shit she text me like 7 am plus fuck man disturb my sleep but nvm she remembers for fuck sake -.-
ahaaha well not my problem.
im just waiting now haha ill update again at night i guess
so yeah happy birthday to me (:

2008-11-22T09:32:00.000+08:00

wooo yesterday finally skate ^^
asked teckhui out to skate then yeah off to his house lend his deck and boom we're skating
good to see me old mate again haha he never change but just becoming more lazy hahah
good ah like that.

then went to cash from dad meet fiqq, i didnt know the rest was gonna be there hahhaa
ielah like teckhui siot, lol anws skate skate
chill chill talk talk
blab la kecoh kecoh hahhaa
im so lazy to blog about yesterday haha

just woke up today 9.34 am gosh yawns much
haha
meeting hanna later and the rest too yay at least doing something
grrr sya cannot come for she have alot of things to do sad much
but nevermind hmm
study hard for exams sya (:

remember cutdown on your smoke lol 1 stick or less ^^

2008-11-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

watch Russel peter on British the last part really fucks me up serious! hahah

Today didnt go school for my friend say got this inspection later must cut hair XD haha
lazy so yeah sat at home play xbox the whole day hahah

yeahhhh was texting smelly bum bum all day like finally she replied ? haha
bla bla time flies mum got home gave money to eat,
big bro took his bike and went to like mr parata we ate there fooh sedap haha
smoke smoke then home now with guitar trying to find chords for new song ^^ hee

talking about smoke, sya remember okay? whoever smokes more then 1 stick per day loses haaha okay not..
promise me you will stop smoking by the end of december k
i wiil too dont you worry(:

HEAR THAT IM GONNA QUIT SMOKING .HAHAHAH

well tc mates (:

2008-11-19T18:44:00.000+08:00

such a boring day today,
woke up like early early in the morning cook meself some eggs scramble and ate.
went to school bored like fuck, then belo never morning msg me haha how am i suppose to know you didnt go to school tsk goodgirl kehape, well she msg like 11 plus like that
was in class teacher talking crap as usual

break...
prac claass..
home right now hahah

easy right ? lol no life sia go school
i wanna jamm siakkkkkkkk fuck fuck
nothing to update

guys: masturbate girl:stroke your pussy

hahahah boredddddddddddd

i saw this video like few months back watching it back is fucking hell funny XDD

MUST WATCH
Girly MAAAAAAAANNN

2008-11-18T18:55:00.000+08:00

Oh ini saya kenal niii saya tahu nii, huruf ini, ni kan huruf "M"

Hahaha seriously that video cracks me up XD
legend people remember them!

well today simply woke up at 8 sharp again, i felt dizzy maybe eat too much or lack of sleep
hmm yeah so woke up as usual then i went to bath, gosh i dont know why i feel like empty today really empty dont know why.
after all that i realise my P.E shirt is like not wash so didnt go PE for today,
helped grandma cooked and eat.
bought ciggs and went off to school.

during in the bus i felt sad? i dont know why i really did felt sad for no reason i guess there is something bothering me maybe because she didnt reply? cant be la, but hack care.
reach school meet taufiq and hafiz they wanted to cabot XD
then i say go your house ah taufiq then yeah we went on with the cabot-ness.
hahah and the best part i was around school compound less then 5 mins hahah
how cool is that, very good student indeed.
i was waiting for her to reply but yet still no reply.
so talked in the bus, obviously damn kecoh with taufiq haha
he smack me i smack his head then joget techno like idiots,
bla la bla we reach his house already gosh, the house is so WIDE seriously
hahah hafiz wanted to play Xbox fuck man the tv BIG siol FUCKIN BIG haha
damn! haha
awesome crib he have seriously
tried his new pedal was fun haha but got bored very fast,
i make alot of noise laugh at taufiq alot XD
damn fun la disturb him hahah
well dont wanna drag
play play play then went home.
Now here chilling haha infront of comp doing nothing, waiting for sya to online or at least reply msg or something? yeah imissyoualotllotlotlotlot

and the best part today i dont smoke much, due to headaches i guess?
yeah good thing oppourtunity to stop ^^

well tc mates

istillloveyou):

2008-11-17T17:45:00.000+08:00

woooo what a fucking sleepy day *yawns*

yesterday i slept like 11 plus ? early and wth so tired sia today
woke up 8 exact i got one cigg left so yeah smoke during i bathed
text her in the morning bla bla bla then went off to school ..
teacher being an ass saying "idris, you dont wanna cut your hair dont come school go sell your banana at geylang"
obviously i laughed hahah its funny yeah
then LPER lesson gosh damn bored, i was suppose to give kikin her chocolate for her birthday is like on 19 november so decided to give hershey haha
at least i gave something XD
yeah yeah hugged gave her the stuff hugged went back to class, class end and got this stupid talk at aduitorium fucking hell its boring but funny at the same time.
i got freebies highlighter and notebook wahh no need to buy anything if wanna write some songs XD
hahah
headed home and now here i am nothing to do for someone is like having no mood i wonder why kinda worried though, miss her alot alot for 2 weeks never see her
hahah
pathetic sia parker -.-

okay here i am waiting now 10 mins to six im smelly havent bath gosh
boredd boreddd boredddd

cassie msged me wow -.- hahah MIA for so long now msg.. dont know what to do but ignore ..

2008-11-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

Nothing to update seriously

im pissed sad happy and annoyed today hah
bunch of mix feelings i know, what to do im me ? lol

well yesterday went out to meet the usual but my main point is meeting up bestie's, so yeah i went out the same timing as hanna and i reach first i ALWAYS do hahaha without fail, fiqq and the rest went off first didnt bother me much but yeah ask nisya to meet me for awhile then the badot came along then another two badot came along,

after that got this one ex convict he say he did a house break in and selling a FAKE disney pen i was so shiok that is a disney pen haha and yeah so i bought it for 2 bucks, PEN = 2 DOLLARS inclusive GST, this shows how bad SG is yeah i hate this island but got alot of awesome ppl. yeah

went off to marina as per normal i wanna eat ask wan along bla blab labl
then play guitar bla blabla lazy sia wanna talk about it ..
then me hanna and fiqq bestie talk XD
cannot tell you guys those who heard i was shouting vulgarities and many more lol
so much problem can affect people okay so dont misunderstood me ((:

and for today i hate the most is when a girl say's that ALL GUYS ARE THE SAME at their friendster about me or whatever shit, i think you girls right no life hahahah serious shit fucking scumbags, compare to your own species there ARE girls who are the same as guys, dont ever fucking misjudge a person, i just told of this bitch at ther friendster comment.
like wanna step that she is different typical sia XD

whatever to that man ~~~ sway sway

now chatting with sya only seriously bored but talking to her aint so bad? hah
she must eat in order to get fat fat fat
so i can cubit her babats XD

oh yeah MIKE V ROCKS, DON VITO IS THE FUNNIEST , AND BAM IS MY IDOL XD

2008-11-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

Waiting for you cause your worth it sya (:

well today means yesterday i guess hmm got gig, in the morning wasnt myself at all then my dad had to fuck my mind then i just need some time alone and i did!,
in the toilet sobbing like a little girl hahaha

well anyways gig time is like few more hours , met up with gab at outram, story about him why am i like a piece of shit for a few days
blab la bl abla blab labalabl

... then showtime bebeh was not crowded such cold crowd we had and im so nervous dont know why, to my friends who didnt came its okay ^^ there is always next time .. hmm hhahah yeah so we played every original and dear maria which i thought it was a cock sucker hahahahhahahahahah
after the set went out wanted to smoke dad called and MSGED me to come home immediatly then i was fucking pissed fuck off ahahah then got other things that is not important to tell that brought me down too so yeah bla bla
went out i started killing myself with cigg ahmad ryan notice me then
he keep bugging me asking whats wrong then he checked my phone bla bla bla bla
then yeah i realise i got to put my head high chill out think straight and poof make it happen again
try try try try bby you know i will try alot of time^^

______________________________________________________________
well
this one specially for sya k so readers dont be such an ass

you know i dont wanna go again for what like i did during april
i dont want that to happen again i regret leaving serious
now i think i wanna give in this time, like i say i wanna make you happy but by doing what i did brag about the stuff and shit i guess its just making your even sad and hurt, main thing is i dont care if im hurt, at least im hurt by someone i love.
another thing is i will wait but if i know that guy mistreat you again you know what to do k no matter what you know okay i dont like girls getting abuse
so yeah im gonna wait,

cause my heart and eyes are set onto you
that sounds fimiliar right hmm yeah we'll see what the future brings us
just remember im here always here for you no matter what (:

______________________________________________________________

so goodnigght ass its like 12.18 am yeah nights!

2008-11-14T00:17:00.000+08:00

seriously i dont give a fuck about what my dad thinks about me going to gigs fuck him seriously i just wanna cut his balls and throw in the river, gosh NS brother, here i thought NS is there to make you tougher and more responsible FUCK NO SHIT NOT! they make you even lazier look at my sloppy asshole brother he dont do SHIT at home , he just throw his stuff and go out FUCK ? then im like the maid today shit idris do this idris do that idris do everything, in the fucking end what do i get ? NOTHING one fucking single appreciation is not there NOT ONEEEE, jeez fuck the lord someone -.-.

My dad Dont care literally
My mom dont give a SHIT and thinks im always doing the wrong stuff
Brothers including the 2 fat young EQUALS fucking useless bumms -.-

why do i say this ?
no fucking parental love -.-

hell yeah none -.-
____________________________________________________________________

i know you love me
i know you love "us"
i know we cant be...
only one thing i dont know.. why cant you make the choice ? that can make you happy
just remember .......

your someone special, you deserve someone special like me
____________________________________________________________________

Plain White T - lonely September

I'm sittin' here all by myself
Just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
Just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
To leave the rest of the world behind

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
That you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
And the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
Will just kill me if I'm on my own

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
We just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
We've got nothing left to prove

Oh, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
But I know you did

And I didn't mean to meet you then
When we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
The way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

New song but mind the singing XD

2008-11-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

This is the new song i just wrote yesterday and today record so its a rough one, Credits to taufiq for helping on the guitars, mind my singing cause im not a singer (:

Say Goodbye (demo) - Idris (parker)

Enjoy and this is song is specially dedicated to Nisyarawrr(:

Lyrics:

so please dont go away
so please dont let me stay here all alone
the last night we spend at 3 am,
we were looking so calm down the stars

i dont want to let it go
i want you, i want you to stay
but its hard to say, but its hard to say goodbye

when you look me in the eyes, with your very cute smile
i know it will last, but its not forever
cant deny the fact that we spend so much
since we first met, will there be some other time

i dont want to let it go
i want you, i want you to stay
but its hard to say, but its hard to say goodbye

this time is all we got, i move on from my other life, my other life
just hold my hand, just watch my back
i promise you everything will be alright

i dont want to let it go
i want you, i want you to stay
but its hard to say, but its hard to say goodbye

say goodbye
say goodbye.....

2008-11-10T19:44:00.000+08:00

Very happy awesome day today (:

Today woke up like 7.30 then i wash myself up and yeah texted sya (: , she said the most sweetest thing anyone ever said to me, and that really made my day hee you know i know k sya.
so yeah smoked and went to bath get ready to school while im doing that, the sky was grey then suddenly BOOOM chao chibyee raining heavily out of nowhere -.-
and now i bathed i went down to head to bus stop BATH AGAIN ..
sya said no need to come, haiyaa this boy very good one go to school haha, in the end she was right i went to school and wasted 1 hour in that pathetic shit school
afternoon class cancel and i was like fuck ? i come school for nothing that faggot teacher show slides less than 7 slides then okay dismissed asshole so fuck siak hahaahaha
okay nvm, taufiq decided to come my house yay then we recoreded the song i wrote which was inspired by nisyarawrrr thx aite mate (: i hope you will like it, i will upload it soon maybe today yeah
then after that want to head to IMM to meet leena as you can see those pics up there are taufiq me and leena yeah hahah , we did the project and yeah woo we got ideas on hippies but when leena mum came along to guide us hahah was useful and yeah she is really smart using big words which i cant understand hahah my only weaknesss gahhhhhhh lol, and yay the mum treat me THANK YOU lol was hungry anywas then leena was right step tknk je heh, her mum give me that look which make me think that she is thinking that im weird <<>

after all that headed home with taupiq AND WAH i got hit on that thing for cars to like pay their cash card thingy hahah cb lucky taufiq headphone was protecting my head
one cb black fuck bangla laughing at me, then i also laugh ah cause he laugh can see gigi only LOl
okay sudah XD

funny as hell now at home chilling waiting for sya to come home to online (: and taufiq to send the song heh
^^

good day mates

Today's yesterday(:

2008-11-09T18:26:00.001+08:00

My happy drug which never fail to make me happy(:

Sunday: woke up like 7 am in the morning dont know why ? but yeah haha
i feel like cleaning up some stuff so i went to the toilet and wash the toilet haha. After that wash dishes, shouted at mum i wanna eat, bought half spring chicken and yes that is all i ate for today. i really feel like a fucking maid in the house, my elder brother is so useless. currently home alone now -.-
whatever man fuck this shit yeah(:

Saturday((: ; It was the best awesome hell of a day for me, hehe the day i meet siti Ai'syah bte ??? haha yeah so ask along some mates eventually all of them but yeah whatever, reach about 3 pm exact! and first person i saw was fiqq and headed to where we always skated then chill and sya still have not arrive texted her saying she just reach tamp mrt fooh champion ill say hahah.
so while waiting called WL, she said she reached so bla bla bla meet up, sit down talk about shit with fiqq that something happen that morning which is funny yet so dirty and private ONLY FIQQ KNOWS hahah. Yeah was starving like a lion for a goat, went to LJS the saturday meal, yeah kecoh siot with the girls, talk a little bit laugh siao, then fiqqo was "something" then zuzu scared wth -.- hahah so i came over to his place and yeah try chatting but ill give him space bla bla bla , okay the best part of the story hahaha
while comforting fiqq at the SAME time SYA hanna arrived! lol thats the best part ah yeah okay, then sya went to buy food eat eat eat, the girls freaking noisy seriously, and YEAH wtf hanna and sya eat like turtle, so slow you can 60 secs until they put their food into the mouth hahah.

Well whatever skip that part and yeah wanted to go off from plaza sing fahfa went off to session with band and yeah left the normal group ppl, so we decided to pass by fort canning and through cityhall so slack at the stairs not the big one but the small one instead was quite shiok though BUT BEFORE THAT, me zuzu sya hanna waited for the rest who are waiting for other ppl are so goddamn late!! hahah but thanks anyways hehe if not no time for someone k whatever as you can see i took pictures with her alrd big fuck ah hahaha, nice right? i know, sweet right? i know, CUTE RIGHT ? OMFG I KNOW LA SIAK hahahahah

then bla bla bla bla walk pass by canning bla bla bla bla bla pass by cityhall
and there i was walking with sya and like all the way with her heh, im doing that so she wont feel left out XDD mcm paa okay , then yeahh reach our destination fiqqo wanted to buy saturday meal hahah kfc this time so yeah wan went to 7-11 to buy drinks , mampos that guy pick his drinks damn freaking long seriously hahahhahha then head back then i sit with sya and hanna and zuzu, sya wanted to learn chinese PURE chinese XD well i dont care cause i can talk hokkien abit only lol big fuck ah asl hahah
bla bla bla skip moments shit shit talk talk smoke smoke ..
then me and sya went to buy ice cream ^^ heee
strawberry sundae and chocolate sundae HEEE
we called it ice cream saturday, yes i know its lame so whatever haha
we talk chit chat then got one part of time she tired, tired cause of bored
ahhaha
so i ask her to the first place we met ((:
i wont tell much till here
i really had a great time with you and the rest of course duhh hahah

you made that day special never forget (:

booyah people happy reading ^^